Relationships.

"Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is important." - Carl Reiner. 

Howdy bloggers how're ya'll doing? As usual, I am fine and I am ready to blog. 

To be frank, I've always wanted to share about this thing since the dawn of time but because of exams and procrastination, I end up keeping it to myself for a very long time. But, Alhamdulillah, my fingers are very light and energetic.

  

straight.

gay.

lesbian.

In the whole wide world, there are only 1 relationship that is considered as normal which is a guy to woman relationships. However, there are 2 relationships that is not accepted by many which is the guy to guy relationships and woman to woman relationships. Many had debated and tried to make these 2 additional types of relationships vanish forever. Unfortunately, they failed to do so and now, as the world is modernizing, these relationships began to grow at a fast rate. 

I once wondered how would it feels like dating a guy? Since I knew how did it feels like dating a girl. I know this sounds weird but my curiosity grew higher day by day and I did a research about gay relationships. To my amazement, all that I could see in the Google page was videos of gays making inappropriate actions on set. After a few seconds of staring through all the results, I came to a conclusion that gay relationships are more to sex pleasure rather than a long lasting relationship. So, I closed the tab and went blank for a few days. I was quite shocked about it. 

One day at school, a male friend of mine suddenly sit in front of me and looked straight into my hazel eyes.  The class was empty so does the corridor. It was just me and him. At first, I didn't feel anything suspicious or weird because he's my friend and I've known him for a very long time indeed. He's quite a good looking guy I must say, and I can tell that he's sort of muscular. In all of a sudden, he held my hands and pulled his face gently towards mine and he said the magic word. I Love You. I thought that it was a joke, and I replied it as if I really meant it. He smiled at me and literally kissed my hands. I was totally shocked at that moment because I never thought that he would have the courage to do something like that. Ever. He took my pencil and kept it inside of his pocket and went away. I was left mystified.

At the end of the day, I saw him near the main entrance and he smiled at me reluctantly as if he's afraid that I'll tell everybody about what happened during recess. Luckily, my dad came early and I got into the car without looking at the guy at all. 

In my room, I kept on thinking about the 'tragedy' and I suddenly felt something that I call likeness. I snapped out of the feeling cause there's no way in hell that I'm ever going to fall in love with a guy. Even if there's only 1 girl left in the world, I'd still try to get the girl. 

When the sun fell down, it was time for the moon to provide light source to humans. The sudden likeness was still inside of me and I can't seem to understand what is this feeling actually means. I was very worried  if I'm turning into a gay who date with guys. I slept early and forget about everything about it on the next morning. Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah the feeling went away easily. 

From that incident, I finally knew how would it feels like, dating a guy. Even if it was just a short period of time. 

So, what I'm trying to say here is that :

- never ever care what would people say about your sexuality. it's your life you're living, not theirs. 

- choose your sexuality wisely to avoid from regretting them. 

- be with who you want to be with through the rest of your life. if it's a guy, then be with it. and if it's a girl, make it happen. 

I think that's all for now, thank you for reading, have a nice day. :) 

Assalamualaikum. 

xoxo.