I've been trying to get a grip on reality since the first time we met each other. I was in the realm of wonderland for quite a very long time indeed. Everyday, my life is being haunted by a 'dream' which I believe that it will never turn into reality. You are something desirable to me and I can't let you go just like that. But faith was not by my side, and I think it's time to let you go and get a grip on reality.
I wish I had never met you on the first place. Without knowing that you are something impossible to me, I tried to be with you all the time hoping that luck will light up the way. As time goes by, you were on my mind all the time until I reach that one point where I'd easily get jealous whenever you are with other guys. Sometimes, the thought of you made me stay awake until 3 AM in the morning. Your laughter and your loud voice all lingering in my head.
Every time I tried to walk away, I can't seem to make it happen. I tried and tried real hard but all I get was nothing. But on that very day, God has given me the opportunity to walk away from you and I did. You were with someone else and it broke my heart into tiny little pieces. Miraculously, I find it really helpful and I was really happy with it. Thank God.
Since that day, I started to care less about you. I avoided you and I stopped talking to you. You may not understand why I'm doing this, but you got to at least try to understand. From that day, I told myself to learn to walk away and face reality. Even if reality hurts a lot, stay in there because there's nothing more hurtful than heartbreaks and grief. Reality teaches you how to be a stronger and wiser man.