Sunday, December 25, 2011

Jolly Merry Christmas.


It's Christmas time. :) 

For that, let's listen to some Christmas songs from Glee. 


Friday, December 23, 2011

JLS - Take A Chance On Me

" Baby take a chance on me. " - JLS, Take a chance on me.

Hello Beings. haha. :P 

This morning I woke up a little bit early. I had to accompany my grandfather to the hospital at 10 am. Pity him you know, his arthritis is just something that I can't bear to see. He's hurting and he can't walk without any support. At the hospital, I waited outside the door because my father told me not to enter. This time, I didn't feel disgusted with the hospital because it's a different hospital. The clean and awesome one. HAHA. :P 

In the evening, I slept for 3 hours. Well, I was planning to sleep just for a while and wake up at 4 pm to do my homework and stuffs. But when I open my eyes, it was nearly 6 pm. I was like, *OH SH*T. =,='' 

At night, I cooked eggplant with some olive oil and i made fish soup with tamarind. It was a very simple dish and I loved it. The soup is the main attraction. It has that sour taste. Ah. Delicious. 

Overall, today was boring because there was nothing extraordinary happened. I'm looking for something special to post in my precious blog. When I've found it, I'll post it immediately lah. :) 


Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Willow featuring Nicki Minaj - Fireball

"I'm the fireball in the party" - Willow Smith, Fireball. 

Howdy Mate! 

School is going to start in 2 weeks. I'm not ready to go back to school. -,-

Today as usual, I went to my granny's house and really tried to make myself enjoy this holiday. I had 2 eggs for breakfast. Sunny-side up. Then, I went to the hospital to accompany my granpa for his review. Seriously, I hate the smell of the hospital. It's the smell of death and sickness. *vomits. 
But I guess I have to learn to bear with the smell because I shall be a successful doctor in the future. Yes, my ambition is to be a Doctor. I'm not quite sure what kind of doctor, but doctor it is. 

After the review, we went back home and settled down. I slept for 3 hours. While I was sleeping, my granny fed my granpa and she helped him with things. As I woke up, I cooked my lunch and ate it in front of the tV because Cougar Town asked me to do so. :P 

In the evening, I went outside and took some photos with my sister as my model. These are the pictures I got : 

Awesome right? HAHA. 
Okay, I'll continue blogging tomorrow. My eyes are getting heavier. Huh. Goodnight. :) 


Wednesday, December 14, 2011

One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful

"that's what makes you beautiful" - One Direction : What Makes You Beautiful. 

Hello Bloggers. :) 

on this very night, I want to make things DIFFERENT. instead of typing neatly, let's type chaotically. :D 

okay, here goes nothing. *fingers crossed. 
firstly, I bought the latest issue of Galaxie last morning and I was kind of excited because it's the 'Music Issue'. the front page pictures were Kelly Clarkson, Justin Bieber, Nicole Scherzinger, Charice and Joe Jonas. well, from the look of the front page, I have to admit that it is indeed exciting enough to attract buyers' attentions. I mean, all of them are AWESOME and HOT and SUPERB. on the first page, the excitement was still there. as I go on to the next page, next page, next page. the excitement DROPPED. T,T i dont know why but the pages got boring and boring and so on. until that one point, I feel like, 'this is the worse issue ever'. aside from the songwords section and the posters given, the rest was just a piece of expired apple pies.*have to be cautious about my language.* anyways, today was BORING. there was nothing to be done and there's nothing so special about today. just an ordinary day. oh, and thank God, I am still breathing fresh air and still eating edible foods. alhamdulillah. 

well, i guess that's all for now. bye. 
p/s : enjoy the video. One Direction. \m/

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


Do you ever feel like you want to change yourself and get down dirty? Do you ever feel like you want to turn everything upside down is your life? Well, my answer to my question is, YES. I've always wanted to turn things around in my life. I want to feel the excitement of ignoring the norms of life. I want to feel what it is like to be loved and cared by a person whom I think is gorgeous and super beautiful. Although I know that the relationship wouldn't last until we're old and rusty. But, that's the point of having an early birdie lovey-dovey feeling ya know. So that you can feel the sexual pleasure and other things as well, such as the feeling of being appreciated, and loved.

Watching those who have girlfriends and boyfriends, it sometimes made me jealous of what they have. They could feel what I felt, touch and say what I said. What I mean with that is, I was in love with someone and I've  been into relationships but the only thing that I didn't do is to touch her. I didn't have the courage to do so. It's not like I'm a religious person who will never touch a girl, but, that's the norm of life that we must follow. After years of my breakup, I finally realize that I was wrong. I was in the line waiting like a douche-bag to start my move. Now, I'm lonely with hopes that someone out there would want to be with me. Not that I'm dying to have one, but that is what I 'need' for the time being. My life is so dull without love and affection.

Despite those sadness that I'm feeling while being single, there are also some reasons to be happy and satisfied during my single years. Firstly, I can flirt with ANYBODY. 'Anybody' refers to male and female. And, just in case you're wondering,Yes. Sometimes I flirt with guys as well just to know whether I am lovable on both sides or not. To my amazement, I caught some fishes.*wink* But, the relationship was abandoned and the guy who thinks I'm gay, was heart broken. HAHA. It was a funny thing to know that I am also lovable on the male side. I mean, I'm not that 'hot' or 'handsome' or super duper 'hunky'. I just LOVE to flirt. :)

Secondly, when I'm single, LESS money were spent on buying prepaid top ups. Instead, MORE money spent on shopping! Oh, yes, I am a shopaholic. I am probably the biggest shopaholic ever in my entire family. Well, I only go shopping when there's a big sale going on or if I have sufficient pocket money, I'd seriously go shopping with my beloved cousin. Shopping is just my thing. Even though some people may judge me the way my body looks like, I don't give a damn. Hell to the NO.

Lastly, when I'm single, I can eat as much as I want. I don't have to look after my weight every week just to please my girlfriend. In my point of view, losing weight for someone you love is a great thing to be done. But, having to look after your diet and eat LESS carbs just to look good. Huh. That is called killing yourself. It is better to have freedom in your eating habits. Ya know? F-R-E-E-D-O-M. Freedom.

All in all, being in a relationship is great but being single until you've managed to find the right person at the right moment, that is what I call a pure relationship. You don't have to think about your future anymore, because you are in the future by that time. Well, at least you've got to plan ahead so that your children will live a life worth living. That's all from me.


Sunday, December 4, 2011

A Friend In Need, Is A Friend Indeed.

Hello bloggers. :)

I just got back from Tambunan, my hometown. So, if you're expecting me to be extremely exhausted, I AM. :))

Based on the title, it is very obvious that I'm going to write about someone that I adore and love the most. The person is,*drums rolling* Khairul Akmal Bin Kula or better known as Ello Bijak in his Facebook account.

7th July 2008 was the historical and important date for both of us since that was the first day we've known each other. To be frank, I have never interact with him before 7th July 2008. All I did was walk past him or to be straight, ignored him. HAHA. However, everything turned 360 degrees when a friend of mine accidentally left me and him on a table in the cafeteria. ALONE. That is where things got more and more interesting.

I was writing something on a book when he suddenly broke the silence. If I'm not mistaken, these were the dialogues I remembered.

Akmal : *sliding his fingers through a random page in my book.* wui, aku suka ni pegang2 yang bekas kena tulis di belakang kertas ni. kadang2 pandai juga aku termimpi2 time pegang2 ni bongol2 kecil. haha.

Me : oh ya ka? ummm, lain juga. haha.

And that is all that I remembered. HAHA. Sorry.

As time goes by, both of us began to be more rapidly seeing each other most of the time. But, there is that 1 thing that made both of us very close. Singing. :) I don't know why, but, singing somehow made us closer day by day. Oh, and we frequently escaped the assembly. We were so baddass back then. *smiling like a freak.

2009, secrets were broken and BAM, we became BEST FRIENDS. :)
Since then, he taught me how to be this and that and so many things! He's kind of my role-model. HAHA. We often share our thoughts about things and most of all, PEOPLE. Although sometimes people label us as GAYS.  WE DON'T GIVE A DAMN YA KNOWW. \m/  cuhs we ROCK!

2010 was the climax of our friendship. BEST FRIENDS has been upgraded to BFFs. On the first midterm holidays, I slept at his house for 2 days and it was friggin awesome. That was the first time my father allowed  me to go for a sleepover at my friend's house and I was so damn happy. 1 whole night we didn't sleep because there were too much stories finally unfolded. Oh, PMR was around the corner and we did some revision. :3 *we were like angels back in 2010. haha. When the results were out, another mystery was revealed. WE ARE COUSINS. Yep, long distanced cousins. I mean, VERY LONG.

2011, we separated into our own ways. I went to MRSM and he went to Sabah College. It was quite saddening ya know. We've been on the same school for 3 years and separated. Well, our friendship didn't end on that very day though. We're still in contact even though we're miles and miles away. Facebook is always there for us. DiGi enhances our communication. So yeah, we're still BFFs.

To sum everything up, I just want to say that, a Friend is someone who you can count on for the rest of your life. But please make sure that your friends are F-R-I-E-N-D-S. :) That's all for tonight.

Roger and Out.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Me, Myself and I.

Hello my dear bloggers.

The holidays has begun and likewise, I'll be staying at home with my other siblings. Today my siblings went back to our 'kampong' or to be exact, our village. Since I was home alone, I played with my DSLR and had so much fun editing my pictures. So, the results are below:

Edited. :3

Fake smiles helped me a lot. 

I am who I am, you can't change the way I am. 

Small eyes, wide forehead. Yeap. That's me.

Smile. :)

Waiting Outside The Line. #1

Waiting Outside The Line. #2
There you have it. a compilation of my pictures. Perhaps after this, I'll try to indulge my self into photography because it's kind of awesome. Plus, it's the widest and biggest trend in the whole world. Who wouldn't want to do it right? Unless you don't own any DSLR or Camera. But, it's okay, maybe you should indulge into something different. Anyway, if you have any comments towards my pictures above, you can comment it in the comment form. :) 

Happy Holidays. XOXO

Friday, November 25, 2011

Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1

Childhood is the kingdom where nobody died. - Isabella Swan

As you can see from the picture inserted, I officially watched Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1 on the first day of screening. This movie has been the most anticipated movie for this year next to Harry Potter Part 2. It has always been my dream of watching a movie on the first day of screening and thankfully, I did it.

Bought the tickets for 1:10pm show but waited for almost 25 minutes just because of a 'problemo' in the hall. Everyone couldn't seem to wait to enter the hall as it is like I said one of the most anticipated movie of the year. While waiting in the queue, we talked about our exam results. I was a little bit confident that I'll excel but at the same time, I don't think that I can. I told my friend to ask about my pointer and to my amazement, my guess was correct! I managed to excel in the final exam. Alhamdulillah. I was very excited and hyped as soon as I knew about my pointer. The door to Hall 6 has finally opened and people were rushing to get into it. I almost touched someone's butt in the mad crowd. *disgusting much.

The movie started in a blink of an eye. Jacob ran away immediately when he received the wedding invitation from Bella while Bella's mother and step father were so happy about it and not to be forgotten, Bella's lovely father smiled when he stared at the invitation. I guess some people can't seem to accept the fact that somebody's going to get married. Huh.

I didn't sleep through the movie because it was too damn freaking awesome. However, we were the only loud group in the hall. It was as if we own the hall and the cinema. Thankfully, the others didn't feel annoyed and the just let us be.

Movie Review:
   Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1 was very amazing. You know, it's like you can feel what the actors and actresses are feeling. Their choice of wardrobe is fine. The movie really captured my attention from the beginning. And the way the end the story is beyond imagination because it really makes you want more for the Part 2. All in all, this is a very magnificent movie. You should NOT watch this with your family because there are some scenes which will bring you towards total awkwardness if you watch with your family. Perhaps you can bring your friend watch this movie. Just like what I did.

Rating :
***** 5/5

XOXO. Happy Holidays!

Monday, November 7, 2011


"Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is important." - Carl Reiner. 

Howdy bloggers how're ya'll doing? As usual, I am fine and I am ready to blog. 

To be frank, I've always wanted to share about this thing since the dawn of time but because of exams and procrastination, I end up keeping it to myself for a very long time. But, Alhamdulillah, my fingers are very light and energetic.



In the whole wide world, there are only 1 relationship that is considered as normal which is a guy to woman relationships. However, there are 2 relationships that is not accepted by many which is the guy to guy relationships and woman to woman relationships. Many had debated and tried to make these 2 additional types of relationships vanish forever. Unfortunately, they failed to do so and now, as the world is modernizing, these relationships began to grow at a fast rate. 

I once wondered how would it feels like dating a guy? Since I knew how did it feels like dating a girl. I know this sounds weird but my curiosity grew higher day by day and I did a research about gay relationships. To my amazement, all that I could see in the Google page was videos of gays making inappropriate actions on set. After a few seconds of staring through all the results, I came to a conclusion that gay relationships are more to sex pleasure rather than a long lasting relationship. So, I closed the tab and went blank for a few days. I was quite shocked about it. 

One day at school, a male friend of mine suddenly sit in front of me and looked straight into my hazel eyes.  The class was empty so does the corridor. It was just me and him. At first, I didn't feel anything suspicious or weird because he's my friend and I've known him for a very long time indeed. He's quite a good looking guy I must say, and I can tell that he's sort of muscular. In all of a sudden, he held my hands and pulled his face gently towards mine and he said the magic word. I Love You. I thought that it was a joke, and I replied it as if I really meant it. He smiled at me and literally kissed my hands. I was totally shocked at that moment because I never thought that he would have the courage to do something like that. Ever. He took my pencil and kept it inside of his pocket and went away. I was left mystified.

At the end of the day, I saw him near the main entrance and he smiled at me reluctantly as if he's afraid that I'll tell everybody about what happened during recess. Luckily, my dad came early and I got into the car without looking at the guy at all. 

In my room, I kept on thinking about the 'tragedy' and I suddenly felt something that I call likeness. I snapped out of the feeling cause there's no way in hell that I'm ever going to fall in love with a guy. Even if there's only 1 girl left in the world, I'd still try to get the girl. 

When the sun fell down, it was time for the moon to provide light source to humans. The sudden likeness was still inside of me and I can't seem to understand what is this feeling actually means. I was very worried  if I'm turning into a gay who date with guys. I slept early and forget about everything about it on the next morning. Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah the feeling went away easily. 

From that incident, I finally knew how would it feels like, dating a guy. Even if it was just a short period of time. 

So, what I'm trying to say here is that :
- never ever care what would people say about your sexuality. it's your life you're living, not theirs. 
- choose your sexuality wisely to avoid from regretting them. 
- be with who you want to be with through the rest of your life. if it's a guy, then be with it. and if it's a girl, make it happen. 

I think that's all for now, thank you for reading, have a nice day. :) 


Friday, October 21, 2011

Walk Away.

"When life gives you lemon, make lemonades."

I've been trying to get a grip on reality since the first time we met each other. I was in the realm of wonderland for quite a very long time indeed. Everyday, my life is being haunted by a 'dream' which I believe that it will never turn into reality. You are something desirable to me and I can't let you go just like that. But faith was not by my side, and I think it's time to let you go and get a grip on reality.

I wish I had never met you on the first place. Without knowing that you are something impossible to me, I tried to be with you all the time hoping that luck will light up the way. As time goes by, you were on my mind all the time until I reach that one point where I'd easily get jealous whenever you are with other guys. Sometimes, the thought of you made me stay awake until 3 AM in the morning. Your laughter and your loud voice all lingering in my head.

Every time I tried to walk away, I can't seem to make it happen. I tried and tried real hard but all I get was nothing. But on that very day, God has given me the opportunity to walk away from you and I did. You were with someone else and it broke my heart into tiny little pieces. Miraculously, I find it really helpful and I was really happy with it. Thank God.

Since that day, I started to care less about you. I avoided you and I stopped talking to you. You may not understand why I'm doing this, but you got to at least try to understand. From that day, I told myself to learn to walk away and face reality. Even if reality hurts a lot, stay in there because there's nothing more hurtful than heartbreaks and grief. Reality teaches you how to be a stronger and wiser man.

 -The End-

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Najwa Latiff .

Najwa Latiff is one of the Young Talents Of Malaysia. Her talent in music has brought her to a higher level in the industry. At first, she was a normal teenager who posts video into YouTube with hopes that she'll be famous like Yuna or Justin Bieber or Ana Raffali. Finally, after months of attempts, she has now emerged as an awesome singer with such big talent. Her popularity is getting higher day by day. 

Recently, I've been exposed to the songs that she sang on YouTube. Of all the songs that I heard, Cinta Muka Buku stroked my soul and triggered something inside of me which I call likeness. I keep on repeating the song and miraculously, I enjoyed it. In fact, the more I play the song, the more enjoyment I get. It's my ear-candy.

From this article, all I'm trying to say is that, reach for your dreams and make it happen. No matter how hard it takes, just go for it and you'll never regret the outcomes. Fulfill your destiny like she did. :) 

Her smile is so beautiful and wonderful.
Her voice is a miracle.
16 is just so possible.
Nothing is impossible.

Najwa Latif

Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Glee Project : Cameron Mitchell.

Cameron Mitchell .

He is one of my favorites in the Glee Project show. I've been watching him from the 1st episode and all that I realized is that he is indeed a good singer and actor. The look on his face and his voice is strong enough to make girls fall in love with him and go crazy. To be frank, I kind of melted when I heard him singing for the first time. Yeah, I kind of though.

Glee Project is a TV show which opens an opportunity for the Gleeks to be a part of Glee officially for 10 episodes. It is a great show because through the show, huge talents are being discovered. For example, Cameron. But, unfortunately he bailed out himself under some reasons that he could not really describe. If he didn't do so, I believe that he'll be the winner instead of Damian and Samuel. Maybe his religious convictions has something to do with it. Poor him. Opportunity is being left at stake for nothing.

Well, I guess that's all for tonight. I'm so exhausted after a whole day of hosting a family feast at my house today. It was hell of a fun though. ;)

Goodnight and Goodbye. xoxo

Thursday, August 25, 2011

BVLGARI. The new of me.

HELLO readers. :)

So, I just got back from shopping for this upcoming festive season and I feel extremely tired. Although I didn't buy that much but the walking and looking was indeed tiring enough for my body to handle. For this year's raya, I don't feel like buying so much as I don't have the passion to celebrate the day. Unlike last year, I still had a little bit of the passion for raya but this year, the feeling had gone totally.

During my shopping hours, I was very lucky because my parents paid for me and I got a BVLGARI perfume for FREE! I was totally excited and over the moon when the cashier said that I could pick any one of the perfumes available in the store. There were too many to be chosen but thought after thought, I finally chose the BVLGARI : AQVA POUR HOMME. This is my first time having a BVLGARI as my very own fragrance. :)

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And, with this new parfum, I am proud to call myself as the new me. Somehow, this fragrance had made me a new person internally and vice versa. The design of the bottle is so unique and the smell of the fragrance is shockingly awesome and addictive. I am on the edge with my fragrance. :)

This is the new of me. :)

_Peace our home dawg_

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


a very good afternoon i bid to all of you dear readers. :)

it has been 23 days since we started fasting. i'm getting a little bit fatter than i ever expected. i was hoping that i could lose some weight on this year's fasting month as i'm staying on a dormitory. annnnd, you know how it feels like to live in the dormitory(exhausted, bored, bored, annnnd bored.).

in a few days time, i'll be back on board with my family and old friends andddd, i'll be gone shopping for the upcoming RAYA! well, i'm kind of excited about this year's raya because i'll have the chance to shop for my own things on my own, with my own money, and with my own friends! well, you may think that i'm a typical guy living in a typical world. BUT, you are absolutely WRONG. :)

my life is brilliant, my life is pure, i saw an angel...*snapped out of it.

so yeah, i have the awesome-st family ever. i mean, although sometimes we fight, but that's the verdict.

back to the main point, my intention of posting this is that i just want to wish you guys a very happy MERDEKA RAYA. may all of you guys have a blessed and super-awesome raya this year. by the way, NEVER FORGET TO GIVE 'angpau' to the children and not to be forgotten, the TEENS!

once again, HAPPY MERDEKA RAYA! I really hope that Malaysia would reach it's vision before 2020 or by 2020. I LOVE MALAYSIA. :)

p/s : im blogging during class-hour. isn't it just so awesome? yeaaaaaah mannnnn. \m/

_peace out home dawg_

Monday, July 25, 2011

Heartache .

Hi peeps. It's been a very long while since I posted something new. Life as a student in a boarding school ain't that easy when there is no internet connection and a laptop. On this very night I would like to post something about someone I really like the most. I've been ignoring her lately under some reason. Its not because I hate her, but I wanna stay away from her for the benefits of both of us.

Every time I walk pass you, there would be a sudden feeling which I can't really describe. I don't even know why does that feeling came attacking me. But, when I recall, it's something that people call as LOVE. It was a strange feeling because how can I fall in love with a person whom I think already has someone to be loved? Plus, she seemed to be very close to this one particular guy at my school. Every time they meet each other, they'll interact as if they are lovebuds. And to be frank, it bothers me the most when she meets him.

As time passes by, you started to show some signals. You played along my jokes and you started to be open towards me. So, I took a brave step and told her about the feelings that I kept from the start. Unfortunately, my attempt was unsuccessful because I was too nervous to do so. I waited, and waited, and waited, and waited. Until now, I still haven't express my feelings to her yet. Whenever I tried to tell her the real deal, my voice seemed to become sore and phlegm starts to accumulate in my throat. It made me so hard to talk. God, please help me get through this. I want this girl to be mine so badly that I'd sacrifice anything just to get her. She's the sweetest thing I've ever seen and hold.

Goodnight. :)

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Maddi Jane .

Here's a video of Maddi Jane singing Jar Of Hearts. She is just so talented and pretty. She has the package. If one day she emerge as a new born star, I'll never be astounded by her appearance. YouTube is best known as a place where people submits their video and be famous. It is also a place where people promote their abilities and capabilities and knowledge. Happy watching ! :)


Friday, June 3, 2011

ANTM Cycle 16 : Brittani Kline.

Being addicted to America's Next Top Model (ANTM) since 12 years old is definitely weird for a guy or any male in the universe. Boys are usually connected to rough and extreme things. But for me, I am more to the other side of down. I've been living in a family with so many females in it and I'm getting used to girls stuffs. I admit, I do have some male cousins but they're too young and too old for me to talk to. In conclusion, I am more to girls' stuffs rather than clinging myself to the rough and extreme part of life.

Aside from the above, the actual purpose of me posting this is that I want to tell you about the latest ANTM winner, Brittani Kline. It is the Cycle 16 this year and for the past 3 year, I've been starting to like and agree to the decisions made about the winners. Cycle 13, 14, 15, and 16 has been the best cycles ever. The winners were chose according to their ability in modelling.

Cycle 13 Winner : Nicole Fox.

Cycle 14 Winner : Krista White

Cycle 15 Winner : Ann Ward

Cycle 16 Winner : Brittani Kline

So, what do you think about these models? They are truly magnificent and awesome aren't they? :)

Since Cycle 15, ANTM has been upgraded to a new level. It was elevated. From editorial fashion, to high fashion. Couture. From Wilhelmina Models agency, to IMG Models agency. Everything is all about high fashion. That is the reason why I like modelling. And to be frank, ANTM is why I start editorial photography. I want to be like the noted fashion photographer, Nigel Barker. :)

Back to the main point, Brittani Kline has been a very competitive contestant since the first photoshoot. From week to week, she improvised herself and produced superb pictures. Although she didn't win best photos 3 week in a row like Molly did, she eventually manage to emerge as the winner. Even Mrs. Banks said that she has the fresh look almost like an urban chic with some couture girl feature, which is why she was chosen as the winner.

All in all, she is indeed the next top model. She received a contract with IMG Models, one of the most influential model agency in the entire world (that's what Tyra said.). She will also be shooting a spread of Italian Vogue Magazine and a 6 page spread in 'Beauty in Vogue'. Lastly, she will be featured on and 100,000$ contract with Covergirls. Simply amazing for a remarkable model.

Brittani Kline, you are amazing just the way you are. And I'm in love with your pictures. :)


Tuesday, May 31, 2011

sweet memory. :)

| 28 . 05 . 2011 |

it was the day where my friends and I went to the shopping complex and had tons of FUN. 5 persons walk side by side into the realm of happiness. we had our lunch at Pizza Hut. ordered 2 kinds of pizzas and finished everything by 1:20pm. watched Pirates Of The Carribean : On Strangers Tide at 1:30pm and enjoyed it cause it was a fantastic + boring movie. sang lots of songs in the karaoke center until my throat got very sick. 3 persons went home, 2 left. the remaining 2 went to the bowling center and bowled 2 sets of match. then, it was time to say goodbyes.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Instant Crush.

She was sitting next to me. Talking about her love life, and the guy she really likes. I was trying to pay attention to what she was talking about but I just couldn't find the will to do so, because the glow in her eyes were too intriguing. I end up looking into her eyes instead of listening to what she said. Abruptly, she stopped talking and looked at me as if wondering what made me so focused towards her eyes. She took out a mirror and examined every inch of her face. Her movement startled me and I broke out of the fantasy in her eyes. Both of us smiled and laughed after a few minutes. While laughing, our eyes met each other as if it is attached through an invisible bond.
Since that sweet and mesmerizing moment, we became close friends. As time passes by, I finally realize that my tiny crush on her has just got bigger.

At first, I really thought that it was an instant crush but it turns out to be a long one. Every time I set my eyes on hers, I feel a cold rush inside of me. To be frank, I've never felt this way before. Usually, I would only receive a touch of excitement and then it would vanish automatically. But this time, the effects were different. I tried to not to look or talk to her for a day, and all I get was a huge change in my temperature, a hurtful headache and a decrease in weight. I spent days, thinking of a way to make this feeling run away or at least loosen up a bit without hurting her feelings and without making her think bad things about me. I did realize that she do realize about the major changes of how I treat her in public. I always run away from her and I seldom reply her messages. I felt so guilty about my actions.

After days of evading her, she finally asked me about my weird actions. I was speechless and I called her up. It was a 4 minutes call. All that I said to her was about my feelings towards her. She was okay with it and she broke my heart into a million pieces. All this time I thought that she is single, but luck was not by my side, she is not. At that moment, I really feel like a sucker who is trying to confess his feelings towards a girl who already has a soul mate. From that day, my feelings towards her decreased vigorously and right now, I don't think I still have feelings for her any more. Thanks to the Almighty, without His help, I don't think I could survive this pain.
Alhamdulillah. :)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Minggu Bahasa Zon Barat 2011 : Glorious Victory.

Hello again dear bloggers! I am so sorry for not updating my blog for a very long time indeed. So, on 16th of April 2011 until 19th of April 2011, my friends and I went to Negeri Sembilan for the Language Week. And guess what? My drama team brought glorious victory back to Sabah. And not to be forgotten, to my unfortunate friends, don't be sad for your loss in the competition, there's always a next time. :)
And FYI, I was awarded the Best Actor! That was definitely the highlight of my year as a 16teen year old boy. I never thought that I would ever be awarded such an award on such a lovely day. Also, on that very day, I found someone whom I thought would make me happy for the rest of my life. I am very sure that she is the right person. But, I can't set high hopes because anything can happen.
All in all, it was such a GREAT experience. And for a newcomer like me, being awarded the Best Actor is indeed the best thing that has ever happened in my entire life as an MRSM-ian.
Well, I guess that's all for tonight. goodbye and goodnight peeps. :)
Roger and Out.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Everything About You.

Sunday night,
Under the bright moonlight,
You came into my life just like that,
I heard your voice in my phone,
I knew you were the one that I will own.

Your birthday date was saved in my phone,
Your favorite food was all in my mind,
Cooking was in your repertoire,
I kept them all in a jar.

Baby boo,
I'm never gonna leave you,
I saved every experience,
This song is the evidence,
A group of words,
A beautiful song,
Everything about you,
And I love you.

You are the apple of my eye,
Without you, I don't think I'll survive,
In this world full of darkness,
You're the only light,
In my eye.

Baby boo,
I'm never gonna leave you,
I saved every experience,
This song is the evidence,
A group of words,
A beautiful song,
Everything about you,
And I love you.

Nothing can change my love for you,
With the strength of our love,
We could make it through.

Baby boo,
I'm never gonna leave you,
I saved every experience,
This song is the evidence,
A group of words,
A beautiful song,
Everything about you,
And I love you.

Oh, I love you. :)

Each night, I would sing this song and pretend that you are still with me. Trying to reminisce all the memories when we were together. Hoping, we could somehow reunite and be happy just like the old times. If you think that it is impossible, I will make you believe that it's not possible because nothing is impossible baby. I will do anything to grab your heart and to have you again. My life is nothing without you. I've loved you forever. Do you think that letting you go is an easy thing to be done? You are a part of me. I can't delete you off of my mind that easily. I hope you'll understand this agony I'm going through right now. Just to let you know, I still love you. :)

Friday, March 11, 2011

Update. :)

Hey there bloggers, it's been a very long while since I last updated my blog. First of all, you can ignore the poster above. Recently, I was transferred to a boarding school or to be specific, Maktab Rendah Sains MARA located in Kinarut. Despite the strict rules, MRSM is such an interesting and awesome school and it is indeed the most suitable school for youths with brilliant and excellent exam results, or should I say straight A's students? And for those who wants to enter this brilliant school, you must at least get 4A's 1B in your UPSR examination, while for the 15 year olds, you will have to get at least 5A's 3B in your PMR examination. Oh, and you MUST get an A in your English, Mathematics and Science.

I was in that marvelous school for 2 weeks last week and all that I could say now is, I kinda miss that school even though the strict rules were making me mad. When I arrived home last Friday, I went straight to my bedroom and took the weight scale to obtain my latest weight. Surprisingly, I lost 3Kg and I was extremely happy with that and a little bit mystified. I mean, how can I lose big numbers if I didn't do any physical activities during my 2 weeks of being in that BIG school? Was it because of the stairs? I don't even know. But, I was very excited and happy with my achievement. I hope that I could slim down before this coming June.

Hmmm... The mid-term holidays are going on for a week. I really hope that boredom wouldn't strike me while I'm 'enjoying' my holidays. And I really hoped that some of my friends would want to invite me to do a sleepover or a movie day rather than just staying at home without doing anything useful instead of doing something reckless. Oh, and I really want to watch the latest movie called Red Riding Hood. From the look of the poster, I have a feeling that this is a brilliant and superb movie to be watched by all ages. For that, I'll leave you a poster and a trailer of the movie. Goodbye and Goodnight my dear readers. :) XOXO.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Adele - Rolling In The Deep.

Assalamualaikum and a very good day to all of you readers and bloggers. Today's video is a song by Adele titled Rolling In The Deep. Since the first time I heard her sing, I love her instantly. I fell in love with her beautiful and unique voice. I love her songs too. Especially this one. Oh, and this is one of 'I Am Number Four' movie soundtrack. Well, here's the song. :)
p/s: You should go to the cinema and watch I Am Number Four ! The best movie in February ! XD


Wednesday, February 23, 2011


Finally, after the appeal, I finally had been accepted to Maktab Rendah Sains Mara which was located at Kinarut. I've been dreaming of getting into this boarding school for a very long time. Fortunately, my dream has come true and I am very happy.

When my friends knew that I was going to move into another school, they were shocked and sad. All this time, I thought that they would be fine with this action. But, it turns out that they were not fine at all. I am so sorry. I hope all of you will achieve excellence in SPM 2012. :)

To my True Friend(Akmal), I am sorry that we can't hangout and I wish you all the luck in the world in your SPM next year. I know that both of us can get straight A's. :)
Remember the date when our friendship starts. All in all, I wanna say THANK YOU for being my Best Friend Forever, and a True Friend. Frankly, I never thought I'd have a friend like you.

To Abdul Rahman, my best friend, I am sorry because I had to leave you alone in that petty school. If there's a time, we'll meet up. :)
You too, I am very sure that you can score all A in all of your subjects for SPM 2012. It's not impossible. Thanks for making me happy on every single day in school.

I think its better if I stop writing. I'll probably cry if I continue. In conclusion, I WILL REMEMBER both of you Forever and Always.
Literally, I'm crying now. :'(
bye. goodnight. xoxo.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Love. ♥

Long time ago, when I was still a kid, I'd sworn to myself that I would not believe in love because it sounds very ridiculous. However, as I grew up, my curiosity about love also grew up. Especially when I saw my friends having somebody to love and someone to be on their side when they're down. Somehow, I feel very envious towards them. So, I broke the oath I made, and started to believe in love. It was weird because I didn't feel guilty of what I'm doing. Instead, I feel very happy because, at last, I opened up my heart to embrace love and affection.

As soon as I opened up to love, something miraculous happened. A girl confessed that she liked me very much and she thinks that I'm really cute and adorable and she wanted to have a relationship with me. At that moment, I didn't know what to say, or what to do towards her confession. I asked her to give me some time to think about her request. It took me almost 2 to 3 weeks to think about her request. It's not just about her request, but I had to know her internally and externally too. Eventually, I came up with a good news. I accepted her request and she was thrilled with my decision. I didn't tell anyone about our relationship and I'd wish that nobody would ever knew about it. After 2 years of being in love, suddenly, the barrier that protected our love collapsed. Sadly, we broke up on 12.3.2007. She told me that she wanted to focus on her UPSR. And, I let her go for good. Only then, my heart was shattered into a million pieces and I gave up on love because it hurts me so bad.

In 2009, I broke my oath again. I fell in love with someone I barely knew but I like her. As time goes by, I was deeply in love. Suddenly, someone told me that the purpose of this relationship was only to make someone jealous and the love that she gave me was not sincere. From that moment, I dumped her instantly, and neglected her for almost a year. But then, we became friends, but not close friends. And again, I sworn to myself that I would not believe in love. But this time, I really mean it. I don't think that I have such luck in love. Perhaps, I have so much luck in something else such as in my studies. :)

This year, 2011. I will not fall in love or be head over heels with anyone. Because I know, it will not last long. Like I've said, I have no luck in love at all. For me, single is indeed better than being owned by someone else. Frankly, I wouldn't keep my heart closed forever. But, when the time comes, I'll reopen it. And, I'm very sure that my heart will reopen after I finished my studies and have a very good job and have big amounts of money in my wallet or in my bank so that the person that I love will never starve for food. Yeah, I know, money is not everything and money can't buy love. But, everything needs money.

Well, until next time, goodbye bloggers and may you have a happy Sunday! XOXO

Friday, February 18, 2011

Bride Wars.

Last year, I planned to watch this movie but I missed it although there were lots of encores of this movie. So, just now, when I turned on my TV, luckily, Bride Wars was on! And, lucky me again, it was just about to start! I sat on my couch, relaxed, and enjoyed the movie.

As I was enjoying my time alone in front of the TV while watching my highly anticipated movie since last year, BAM! BLACKOUT. At that very moment, I was a bit pissed off. Okay, I was VERY PISSED OFF. I mean, how can you not be pissed off when a sudden blackout ruin your happy moments in front of the TV? Huh.

However, I managed to control my anger. Whew. I thought that the blackout wouldn't last long, but, my expectation was indeed WRONG! The blackout took more than 30 minutes to end! I waited. And waited. And waited. And waited. And waited. I waited for a very long time and fortunately, the light was back, and I continued watching Bride Wars.


It was a great movie with a good lesson. This movie reminds me of my friendship with Akmal. Anyways, the actors and actresses were superbly superb. Above all, I love this movie and I want to watch this movie over and over again. :)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Selena Gomez Is Pregnant?!

Whoa. To all of you who really thinks that Selena Gomez is really pregnant and getting very anxious and panicking, now you can let loose and sigh a relieved sigh as I will tell you that the news was just a RUMOR! Did you get it? R-U-M-O-R. RUMOR! Don't believe to any news unless it came from Selena's very own, genuine mouth. Huh. Goodnight.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Born This Way - Lady Gaga .

Last month, the Queen of Pop(Britney Spears) produced a new song. While this month, 'Fame Monster'(Lady Gaga) has produced a new song titled Born This Way! This song is highly anticipated by lots of people in the whole wide world after she sang a little bit of this song in the Video Music Award(VMA) last year. I still remember what did she wear on that very day: a 'dress' made up from pounds of meat. Some speculations said that her dress smelled bad because of the meat. Ewwww. However, if you haven't heard of this song yet, here you go.

p/s: The Music Video for this song is not published yet. Just the music. Enjoy~

So, did you like the song? I don't care what is your decision is but for me, this song is worth the wait! This song is simply Gaga and I LOVE it! I knew that she would produce this type of genre in her latest album. I think, this year is the right time for her to bloom and emerge as the REAL FAME MONSTER. Although I LOVE Lady Gaga, I would NEVER turn my back on Taylor Swift. It's just that, Taylor Swift writes ALL of her songs on her own and that made me LOVE her as much as I love my family and my friends and my cat. But, when it comes to Live singing, I would prefer Lady Gaga. I don't know why, but when Lady Gaga sings Live, her voice is great! It's like, she can really sing! What I'm trying to say here is, her voice is flawless when she sings Live. Huh. Anyway, I hope you liked this song as much as you like to do something that your really like.

Take good care of yourselves dear readers. XOXO.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Britney Spears - Hold It Against Me.

Wow! After years of 'hibernating', the sexy and hottest Britney Spears finally came alive with a brand new song! She is, without any doubt the Queen Of Pop.

At first, I was bemused when I knew that she produced a new single. Because she's turning 30 this year and for me, 30 is indeed too old to sing. Haha. But, when I heard her song titled Hold It Against Me, I was kind of surprised because she still has the voice and the ability to attract people to hear her song.Well, she is indeed artist of the month. Here's the song Hold It Against Me by Britney Spears. I heart this song so much! :D

Enjoy !

Friday, January 28, 2011

why? :'(

From the look of her reaction, it seemed like she is the one. Then, a single Facebook status changed EVERYTHING. 360 degrees.

This girl has been friend of mine since I was 14 years old and now, she is my classmate. Everyday, I'd sense something very weird about her. Sometimes I thought that it was love, and sometimes I think of it about something else. Frankly, most of the time I decipher the weirdness as love. Yeah, I know that it sounds very awkward, but that is the truth. And nothing I can do to change it.

One day, which was today, I encouraged myself to approach her virtually/through Facebook. I went through all of her posts in her profile, and I liked most of her statuses. Gradually, she responded to all of my actions towards her statuses by liking my statuses. Among all of her statuses, I found one status which pretty much gave me some info about the guy she likes. Honestly, I have a strong feeling that the guy she's in love with is me. And I held on to that feeling.

Eventually, the real deal happened. While both of us were busy chatting in Facebook instant messenger, she posted a status that sounded like this, '♥ : npa ndk on9 time aku on9...hurm..~'. From that moment, my world fell apart, and it shattered my fragile heart into million pieces.

Since that incident, I seriously lose all of my faith for love. In my mind, that would be the last time I believe in love. Goodbye LOVE. I've had enough of heartbreaks. And I swear that I won't be able to face another heartbreak anymore. :')
Wish me luck.