Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Happy Or Sad ?

My world is being turned upside down.
And I somehow miss my ex. Plus, she's not replying any of my messages lately. When I asked her why, she didn't give me any reason. It's bringing me down, although I have someone new to cheer me up. But, I'm begging you Ms. R , please reply my message so that I'll know what did I do wrong to you, and I swear I'll make it up to you.
In the meantime, please reply my message and tell me. I'm begging you. From a friend to another. And, truthfully, I miss you so badly, even though I have someone new in my life right now. Frankly, my tears are falling from my eyes, and I think you know what does that mean. Thanks. :)

For that, I give you Britney Spears's song, titled Everytime. This song reminds me of our previous relationship.

Enjoy !

Reply Please .

Please reply my message Ms. R .
I need to know what you're feeling about my action .
I'm begging you . :(
I don't want our friendship to end just like that, without any further explanations .
Please .

You are the only exception .

I have 2 good news! Firstly, I didn't come to school today! I am sooo damn happy today, because I got the chance to rest, watch the tV, wash my clothes, and many mooore to come! Secondly, I may get my dream girl today. I don't know yet whether she'll accept me or she'll kick me out of her life forever. So, to my dearest readers, please pray for me so that I'll excel in getting my dream girl. And to my ex, both of us are happy now, I wish the two of us the best in our own relationship. I hope your relationship with your new guy will lasts forever and same goes to mine. But last night, when I told my ex about my new girl, she didn't reply my message. And I assume that she is somehow sad. I don't know whether my assumption is right or wrong because there is no solid evidence to my assumption. However, I hope that you'd read this post because I want to tell you that I am so sorry if my action did leave some scars to you. I hate to break this up to you, but I am now loving another girl. And I have 1 request here... umm, stop liking me already, but as a friend, I could accept it, because you are the only exception. For that, I'll leave you with this music video, from Paramore titled, The Only Exception. Enjoy!


Saturday, October 23, 2010

A Fresh New Start .

That's it, I decided to move on with my life, and get over you. I deleted your messages, your pictures, and most of all, memories about you in my cute little brain. Yeah, I know that this is kinda rough but it's the best for us. And it's very agonizing to pretend that I don't like you every time we meet plus, I really hate that agonizing feeling. In fact, there's no use waiting for you anymore. I've wasted so much of my time waiting for you, and I regret waiting for you. Actually, on the day you said you'll wait for me, my heart said that you'll not wait for me. But I ignored that stupid feelings, and continued waiting for you. Everyday I wish that time will pass by quicker than today, because I can't wait to get back with you again. And eventually, my heart is right, you didn't wait for me. Instead, you find another guy and get together with him, and finally broke my heart. But, like I said, I'm okay, so don't worry about me anymore cause you have someone else that you have to be worrying about.

I knew that someday, this day will eventually come. The day where sadness and grief will take over my heart and soul, while you are happy with your new boy friend. The day where I will avoid seeing you and make less contact with you. The day when there's no more messages from you. And lastly, the day when I envy you for your love and happiness with that guy.

Well, from now on, I will start a new life without you in my life. I hope that with this initiative, I could forget you or even better, erase your from my life. In fact, there's no use keeping someone like you in my life. huh.

Okay, that's it for today, I'm getting tired and weary right now. Goodbye bloggers and my dear readers! :)
Take care and May God Bless All Of You .

SyafiQ. ♥

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Secondhand Serenade - It's Not Over.

I dedicate this song to Ms. R.

Is it over? I hope it's not over yet, cause I miss you like crazy. I hope you're happy with your new partner. As always, may the both of you live happily ever after. :)

Friday, October 8, 2010


Well, it seems that you've found someone new. I knew that you wouldn't wait for me or at least care about my feelings. You do only what's best for you without thinking what it may do to me. And last time, you've said that you'll wait for me, and you'd tell me if you changed your mind. But now, did you tell me that you refused to wait, and find someone else instead of me? Did you even tell me that you've changed your mind? Instead, you told me that you have another guy, and you're loving that guy. I'm not furious or mad, but, at least, please care about my feelings, and tell me earlier that you're loving another guy, so that I'll stop waiting for you and move on with my life.

Just to let you know, I want to be the one you open up to, the one you tell all your desires to, the one who knows what you want, the one you tell your deepest secrets and the one you fall in love with. But, I guess all of my wantings are just dreams and it will never come true. I know I've been a bad lover before, but time goes by and I changed too. I promise you that I'll be more loving, caring and fun to be with for the rest of your life. You have my words and I'll prove it to you. Unfortunately, I can't prove it to you anymore for now you have someone else and I don't want to mess things up and be the spoiler to your relationship.

And one more thing, actually, I really am happy for you. If you think that you've broke my heart, please don't think it that way cause my heart is just fine. In fact, it is much better now because you found someone new whom you can share your secrets with, open up to, tell all of your desires and someone who knows what you want.

I'll always be your friend, I'll always be there for you when you need someone to rely on and you can always borrow my shoulders whenever you feel like crying. Last but not least, I wish you all the best in your future undertakings, and may God bless you now and always.

Sunday, October 3, 2010