Saturday, December 7, 2013

My Backbones.

They might not be perfect but they are indeed the best. We study together and hopefully we'll succeed together. I love all of them and I'm happy for having them here in college with me. If any of you guys read this, I LOVE YOU. muah muah


Hello people.

  Since I got back into college 3 weeks ago, I've gotten lazier day by day and I, myself don't even like it. Imagine living only with your friends without your parents guidance and assistance, it takes time for you to get used to it. But if you're the type of guy who depends on your parents every day, then it should be really hard for you to get used to the situation. Well thankfully I ain't that type of kid and I can stand on my own without my parents' assistance 24/7. Yeah

This semester, the lecturers have already warned us that all of us should quit fooling around and start focusing on finishing our assignments before the deadline. At first, I got really motivated to the point that I did my homeworks, revisions and everything so perfectly on time. HOWEVER, it only lasted for A WEEK. I don't even know what has gotten into me at that time. As far as I could recall, most probably it was because of my 'homesick' disease that is gradually becoming strong as we speak. You see, when I get homesick, I tend to be a terrible lazy ass. For instance, if get too lazy, I would dare to skip my prep classes and skip any meals of the day. I know its bad but I just can't help but to just go with the flow.

Anyhow, I'm starting to notice that my life is getting messier and stressful as each day goes by without any warning. After doing some research on my self, it is all because of this thing called 'Procrastination'. If you don't know what is the meaning of Procrastination, let me give you the definition.

PROCRASTINATION: The act of delaying or postponing something.

So basically this act of postponing and delaying is just something bad and an enormous time consumer. Same goes to my story, I've been delaying most of my works including the most important ones such as my final year project, paperworks, lab reports that is due a week after the experiment, my laundries, replying text messages and my bath time and also my workout sessions. Instead of doing those important stuffs, I sleep.
This thing has seriously got a grip of my life and now I'm trying so hard to let it go. I'm supposed to be at class doing my works and stuffs but hey look at where I'm at now? In my room, leaning my back against the wall, eating cakes and drinking a can of chilled Milo.

Watching other people rushing to get their works done also got me annoyed sometimes. I mean like hey you have 24 hours a day and you can finish that work for only like an hour! Why burden yourself if you have plenty of time to be spent other than finishing your works? I'm not being a pessimist here but I'm thinking things like how they should be thought of so that I could avoid stress and other things. Just to say this but if you try to take things slow and procrastinate a bit, I'm sure you'll feel more alive and relaxed. BUT, don't ever procrastinate for more than 3 days because believe me, you'll start to get furious and stressed at the same time. You'll start blaming yourself for delaying things at the first place, and you'll end up staying up late every night until you submit your works. I've done this before and it's better if I share it with you guys right?

Well, I guess that's a bit about procrastination today because I'm off to do my works so that I won't get stressed up again for I know how bad it is. Thank you for reading, and may you have a great week ahead! Au Revoir!

Wednesday, November 6, 2013


Hello people. :)

Last week I retrieved my result via the college's students portal and my result was pretty amazing since I've never been this 'clever' back in secondary school. Hahahaha. Hell yeah I was extremely nervous while waiting for the result to come out. It was more nerve wrecking than waiting for my SPM result earlier this year. Well I bet you people want to know what's my result right? Here you go,

Just in case you can't see clearly, my CGP is 3.89 and I was very shocked and excited and truly happy when I knew it. But I still can't believe that I managed to get as colorful as this result.

I just finished watching The Mortal Instruments right as we speak. I couldn't sleep so I decided to watch movies. So basically the movie pretty much caught my full attention and it really kept me awake throughout the entire 2 hours of screening. This movie is filled with romance and action and magic and that's what kept my eyes wide open. The genre suites me well as far as I could see. Same goes to the movies 'I Am Number Four' and 'Beastly'. These 2 are my most favorite movies ever since puberty. Hahahaha. I must've thought that these kinds of movies shows my level of maturity which is not that matured anyway. :p

In conclusion, Mortal Instruments was da bomb and my result was awesome! So happy and SATISFIED. I think that's all for today, I'm going to bed. Goodnight people! :D

Sunday, October 20, 2013


Hello people.

It has been weeks since I last posted any entries and it was all because of procrastination.

So it is now 3:53 am in the morning and I just woke up because of a bad dream. That bad dream left me wide awake and now I am unable to go back to sleep. While I'm wide awake, I've been thinking of how happy I would be if there's someone in my life who cares for me just like how my parents do. Instantly I speak to myself that I would be happier than I am in present. But sadly enough, I don't have anybody else who cares for me just like how my parents do. All I have is my parents.

It's not like I'm being ungrateful or what, but I somehow feel envy of few of my friends who can get someone to love them besides from their own parent. And this thought somehow left me feeling lonely. Yes. I am feeling lonely in the middle of the night. I bet those who has girlfriends/boyfriends can easily call their partners to calm them down at times like these. While you guys enjoy your sweet talks with your partners, here I am still feeling lonely and isolated.

I once feel so loved and cared by someone and it felt so good thoroughly. However, that was last time. Now, when I even tried to reach out to that person, I don't get any reply. It's like I'm forgotten and stoned. The fact that I miss the person who used to care and love me is really bugging me and sometimes I feel so aggravated just for the sake of this terrible fondness.

Until now, I am still feeling lonely and isolated and forgotten. I hope someday my luck will change and happiness will kick in to my life.

Goodnight. :)

Friday, July 5, 2013

I Don't Know. Maybe I Miss You.

I don't know what did I do wrong. I don't know what actually happened. I don't know why did you suddenly neglected me. I don't know why in all of a sudden you went silent. I don't know why in all of a sudden you started to glare at me. I don't know what makes you unhappy. I don't know what will make you come back. I don't know when will we start talking. I don't know how will we survive. I don't know what will happen to us in the future. I don't know how to handle with this situation any longer. I DON'T KNOW. 

   Once, we were considered as a thing. Even though it was only for a short period of time but still, memories were made and feelings grew. I miss your jokes. I miss your smile. I miss your smell. I miss your voice. I miss you face. I miss your style. I miss your personality. I  miss your thoughts. I miss sharing problems with you. I miss the times when we used to laugh together. I miss the time when we used to sit next to each other. I miss those moments when you made me smile. I miss the way of how you used to make me smile even when I'm mad. I miss the way you made my friends jealous of what we had. In other words, I miss everything about you and me. 

   Not talking to you isn't something to be proud of or something to feel happy for. It is something we call as neglect. It ain't easy for me to stop talking to you after all we've been through together. I tried to break down the walls of my egoistical creature. However nothing happened. It was such a waste of time and pride. I've tried to live without your humor and positivity and I failed. Nothing seemed to work when you're not around. Now I'm feeling down and helpless at the moment. Been trying to go to sleep without tears swelling and falling from my eyes. Yet again not any of my attempts worked out. 

   I just hope that we could relive those moments back in the golden days. I miss you so badly and I can't stand watching you talk to everyone else except me. I don't want to hate you. I never want to hate you. I just want things to be the way it was. I hope you're doing fine without me. Although at times I caught you staring at me secretly. But I don't dare to make any assumptions. I don't wanna get hurt. If you're reading this, I miss you. Thanks for the memories. All the best in your way. :) 

Monday, June 17, 2013

Hello College.

This one is going to be just a quick update about where I'm continuing my studies now and what's happening in my life currently. 

Okay, now I'm currently continuing my studies in the foundation level here in Kolej MARA Kuala Nerang, Kedah. I'm taking foundation in science and technology or most likely known as foundation in engineering. It has been almost a month after I registered here. Good news, I'm not the only one from Sabah. There are a few of my friends of the same school. 

I was kind of fascinated when I first got into this so called 'college life'. My first thought on college life is that we will never be attached with those shitty rules ever again, we can arrange our own timetable, pick our own roommates, and most of all, the eternal freedom. But I was wrong. 

and last but not least,

It is kind of stressful for me because I'm not the kind of person who loves following rules and regulations. And I'm not the kind of person who'd like their classes be arranged by someone. And I'm not the kind of person who can cope up easily with new environment and new friends. I need time and space. On top of everything, all I want is FREEDOM. Living with rules is just so like secondary school. I hate it. 

As for my love life, I'm having a crush on this one person in particular but still the person doesn't and will never know about my feelings. As always. 

I guess that's all for this quick update. Its already 1:06 am and I need to sleep. Goodnight people! :)

Monday, April 29, 2013

Having A Coke With You - Frank O'Hara

I'm missing my friends. Among my friends, there is someone whom I have a crush on. So that makes it a combo. I miss my crush and my friends. Haha. I'm still spending my holidays at home hoping that some kind of miracle would happen and take me away to somewhere fun and memorable. It's killing me slowly to sit home and do nothing. Literally, nothing at all. So, last morning, Beastly was on HBO. Since there was nothing better to watch, I stayed on that channel. There was this one particular scene of the movie where both Kyle and Lindy was at the rooftop and they read 'Having A Coke With You' poem. Okay in my opinion, this scene is so romantic and so deep. This is my favorite scene throughout the entire movie. Here's the poem :

Having a Coke with You
is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, IrĂșn, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

Here's a picture : 

Friday, March 22, 2013

Short Grief.

Hello blog. I just got my SPM examination result yesterday and I didn't get straight A's. My result is pretty much one of the lowest in my school, and among my friends in real life. Until now I'm feeling a bit miserable because I didn't achieve my target which is to get above 6A's. But at least I got an A+ on my Mathematics and an A- for both Chemistry and Biology. I was shocked to know that I scored these subjects. Because when I was still studying in MRSM Kota Kinabalu, I have never got an A for Chemistry but as for Biology, I kind of expected it to be an A-. Above all, I am very proud and grateful to Allah the almighty for He has given me an average result without any C's and D's.

Now what I've got to do is try to get over with my result and smile ahead of everything. As the saying goes, Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining. This might not be the end, but this is certainly the start of something incredible. To those who excelled their SPM examination, I would like to congratulate you. As for those who did not excel their SPM examination, I wish you all the luck in the world in facing the roughs and toughs of life. One advice from me, don't give up easily. Who knows after this you'll beat the other kids who excelled their SPM examination? Only God knows what will happen.

I'm still sad now but I'm certain that I'll be okay after a few short grieving underneath my pillow. I think that's all for tonight, Goodnight. :)


Tuesday, March 19, 2013

We Are Young.

Hello blog. :)

Today I went out to some places with few of my best friends to release all the stress and pressure that has been accumulated in our beautiful body for quite a very long time. At first I was a bit worried about going out 2 days before the SPM examination result to be announced. I mean, who knows if the happiness I felt before I get my result would affect my result? Sorry for being to superstitious. Hahaha.

I woke up early this morning just because of this hangout thingy. But I didn't take my shower directly after I woke up. Instead, I made myself a simple breakfast. Which is an egg sandwich. You know, you fried an egg sunny side up on a frying pan and put it in between two slices of breads with some chili sauce and butter. That is what I call as the simple but PERFECT egg sandwich. Oh you can also garnish your sandwich with some lettuces if you want it to be healthy. :)

Back to the story. After I finished my simple breakfast, I went upstairs and played the guitar just to waste some moments because it was only 8:40 a.m. and I needed to go out at 9:40 a.m. That's a 1 hour gap! Hahaha. To make this story short, I ended up being ready at 9:50 a.m. and I was a bit guilty when Hafiz told me that he was already at Wawasan Plaza waiting for me and the others. I rushed through the stairs and ran through the doors. As time goes by, I was already on the bus making my way to the city.

It was a big relief when I saw Hafiz sitting on the mini stairs on the entrance. After a short conversation between both of us, we went into the mall and waited for the others to arrive. While waiting, Hafiz bought a new pair of Fippers slipper and changed his shoes immediately. I guess he was not feeling comfortable wearing his shoes. It was already 10:30 a.m. and neither Ashraf nor Audrey has arrived yet. Hafiz was a bit pissed off because all of us promised to meet there exactly at 10:00 a.m. but I was the only one who arrived right on time. *gave my self a tap on the back*

Ashraf made it earlier than Audrey did. Ashraf was sent by his friend while Audrey took the hot and stuffy bus.  When all 4 of us were there, Ashraf changed the plan a bit because he decide to take a cab instead of the hot and stuffy bus. I was kind of surprised because I have never took a cab around the city. And I was more surprised when Ashraf paid the taxi fare all by his own money. I really thought that we were going to share our money and pay it together but obviously I was wrong.

As we arrived at the beach, which was our first destination of happiness, we got out of the taxi and headed straight to the public washroom to change. Well only Hafiz and Ashraf changed their pants. I didn't bring any. Same goes to Audrey. Then we chose a perfect spot to sit and rest. I was grateful because the weather turned out to be great. No rains but only clouds and the sun. Too bad I didn't bring my extra shorts because if I did bring, I could sit on the sand and make things out of it. But never mind. After we settled down for some times, Ashraf and Audrey went to the nearest stall to buy some drinks while Hafiz and I stayed under the roof. It wasn't long before I started to fiddled with my camera and took some pictrures.

After a few snapshots, Ashraf and Audrey came back from the stall. They also wanted to take pictures and join in the fun. Oh note that Ashraf is wearing the blue shirt while Audrey is the one who is wearing the red shirt.

Those were the only pictures I can upload to you because most of the pictures at the beach is not that good for public viewers. Hahaha.

It was almost 1:00 p.m. when we took off from the beach to go to our next destination. And again, Ashraf paid the taxi fare. Thanks so much Ashraf! This time I sat next to the driver seat so I didn't get the chance to talk crap with the others at the passengers seat. But never mind. So our next destination for happiness was at OneBorneo Hypermall! Frankly I was so excited because it has been a very long time since I got into this large shopping mall. I think the last time I went here was during the Education Carnival last month. As soon as we got into the mall, things were kind of blurry because all of us haven't decide on what to do. I suggested that we try the archery which is located at the same floor as the 1Fitness Gym. If I'm not mistaken, the 3rd floor? Oh and again, Ashraf paid the expenses. Thanks a LOT Ashraf! Just so you readers know, that was my first time playing with bows and arrows. It was not that fun though. I don't know why. But I feel like I'm the Robin Hood or Katniss Aberdeen. Hahaha. Here are some pictures.

Again, I felt guilty to Hafiz because I didn't take a picture of him with his bow. Sorry Hafiz.

After we've build up our accuracy and strength, we went to the next activity. Bowling! At first all of us were so interested and excited about bowling. After all, it has been quite a long time since we last played bowling. We got to the bowling station and asked about the price per game. I was madly shocked because it costs only RM5.50 per game! That is a ton of difference between the bowling station at OneBorneo and Centerpoint which costs RM7.00 per game!. BUT, the condition of the bowling alley was extremely disappointing. The bowling balls? They were ugly. We even had to change to a different lane because of the BAD condition of the bowling alley. It was pretty funny. Hahaha. Ashraf won the whole game and Audrey came in 2nd place while Hafiz came in 3rd. I LOST. But, whatever. I didn't get the chance to snap any pictures because I was crazily infatuated with the bowling balls. Hahaha. Just kidding. And still, Ashraf paid the bills of the bowling fees. Thanks very much Ashraf!

Obviously, all of us got tired because of the activities we did. So Ashraf decided to have our lunch. Still, we were stuck in the middle of the walkway because we didn't know where and what to eat. There were so many choices to be made. For that, we chose to eat KFC. It's affordable, tasty and finger lickin' good! Pictures are as follows :

Clearly, we enjoyed every bits of the fried chicken. But listening to Ashraf's life stories as a chef was more interesting. I can't tell you anything because all of his stories are considered as a top secret. Oh, my friend Azizzami Raidin did call Hafiz while Ashraf was busy telling stories. However I didn't talk to him. In fact, I didn't want to talk to him. Because I want to listen to his stories lively in front of him with my own bare ears. Just so you know, Ashraf paid the expenses again. I couldn't thank you more Ashraf!

The clock struck 4:00 p.m. and it was time to say goodbye to OneBorneo Hypermall. Audrey needed to be at home before 6:00 p.m. or else he will be grounded. Well, he is still 16 years old and under the supervision of his parents. We nearly took the bus but Ashraf didn't want to feel stuffy and all so we took the taxi again. The fare was also paid by Ashraf. I love you bro!

We arrived at Centrepoint KK nearly 5:30 p.m. As I've mentioned earlier, Audrey needed to be at home before 6:00 p.m. so we escorted him to the exit and said our farewells. Our farewells wasn't short. It took us almost half an hour just to say farewell to him. The moment Audrey left was saddening. But we got over the feeling just when Ashraf decided to survey for cellphones. There were lots of choices to be made by Ashraf but after we drank Yoyo's Milky Tea and walked around the mall for some moments, he finally made his bold choice. He decided to buy BlackBerry Bold 9780 if I'm not mistaken. Hahaha correct me if I'm wrong Ashraf. (If he does read this.)

Suddenly I got a phone call from my mom saying that she wanted me to get home as soon as possible. I was so shocked and I panicked. But in the end my mom wasn't that mad. She just wanted me to be careful at all times. This is ALL BECAUSE OF THE SULU STANDOFF IN LAHAD DATU. CURSE YOU SULU. Exactly at 7:00 p.m. all of us walked to the exit. I almost took the bus but since I was terrified of PILAKS and SULU, I decided to take a cab instead. Well, all 3 of us actually took the cab. Hahaha. Just as I was about to take out my wallet, Ashraf abruptly lend RM50 to the taxi driver. Man, I was shocked as hell. He paid everything! I was speechless.

The time was ticking and I needed to get home as soon as possible. All of us got into our respected cabs. I was in the same taxi as Hafiz since we're on the same way. Ashraf had to be alone because of the opposite direction that we were to head. Thankfully ALL 4 of us safely arrived at our own house.

Today was such an amazing day for all 4 of us. There's nothing better than a good friendship that has been reunited. After all, what friends are for if they don't make you happy and do crazy stuffs? Life would be lonely if friends do not exist.

I think that's all for today's post. I'm tired and I need some sleep. Goodnight. I leave you with a song by Fun. It's perfect for this post. Until next time, goodbye readers. :)

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Before the storm.

Hello again blog. I'm kinda sleepy but I seriously need to write about this.

Dear Crush,

You may not know about my feelings towards you. After all, it would no longer be a crush if you knew about how I feel about you. All this while I've been very open to you just because I want to get closer to you. We shared a lot of things. Countless things to be exact. And it is surprisingly hard for me to back off and just forget about what had happened. Frankly I did think of forever and always but I'd knew that all of these are just temporary. In fact everything is temporary. Nothing lasts forever. Even human does not lasts forever. Someday all of these will be gone and vanished into thin air.

The time has finally come for me to realize that you'll go your own way after everything is no longer happening. I'll try to be okay without your love and affection. Just to tell you this, I am superbly thankful to the Almighty because He showed me the way to clear things out between me and you. All those moments spent with you I'll cherish until the day I've gone insane and perhaps senile? Haha. You are the best crush ever. You were always there when I needed you but I truly hate you when you are in your bad mood. You're kinda scary. HAHAHA. :3

Before the storm comes, I think it is much better if I set you free. At least you'll not get caught up in the winds and hurt yourself. Just so you know, I appreciate everything you have done to make me smile or even go loco. You understood me like nobody else does. With that, I leave you with nothing but memories. Memories that I hope you and I will never forget. Thanks.

Got this picture from tumblr. hehe.
Here's a song from Miley Cyrus ft. Nick Jonas entitled Before The Storm. It suites well with our situation. Enjoy. 


Hello blog. So here's the situation. SPM result is around the corner, I can seriously feel the pressure and it got me on my nerves. I'm not that sure of what and how to feel about it. Just for a sec, I was normal but for another sec, there I was lying on the cold hard ground. Ouh! Ouh! Ouh! Trouble! Trouble! Trouble!. Haha... I hate that song but I love Taylor Swift. :)

Back to the story, at this rightful moment, I don't feel anything about what's gonna happen with my result. I mean, I do want a good result regardless the fact that I don't always think about getting a good result. All I ever did was just go with the flow. When people starts talking about this upcoming result, there I go again with all the pressure and tension right by my side. I kinda think that my body reacts to the surroundings. haha.

I know most of you reader (do I have any? haha) would want to know about my SPM result. But all I can say to you is that, I will post about my result only if I pass with flying colors. If it turned out to be a bad thing, I'm sorry but my result will only be kept with me. Nobody will ever know except for my family and a few of my friends. Let's just hope that nothing bad will happen on the day I get my result. Just talking about this topic makes me nervous AGAIN! erghh.. I need to go to sleep. Goodnight.

I don't own this GIF. I got it from tumblr. :) 

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

What I've Been Listening To?


Today I would like to share with you about the most played back album on my iTunes. I know this might be a surprise, but frankly I've been listening to Imagine Dragons' album entitled Night Vision.

It happened last month while I was surfing across YouTube's ocean of videos and I came a across the Imagine Dragons' album playlist. Without much hesitation, I heard the full album and to my amazement, I managed to relate myself to their songs! Their full album suits with my kind of groove and it got me dancing to the beat.

The tracks available on the album are :

01- Radioactive
02- Tiptoe
03- It's Time
04- Demons
05- On Top Of The World
06- Amsterdam
07- Hear Me
08- Every Night
09- Bleeding Out
10- Underdog
11- Nothing Left To Say /Rocks

The song that I love the most are It's Time, Demons, Hear Me, Underdog and Nothing Left To Say/ Rocks. They started to sing and produce albums since 2008 but I don't know why it is now that I realized the existence of their good music! Haha. But I bet most of you heard of their single It's Time. I mean, even Glee did an awesome cover of it! I think that's all for today. :) I'll leave you with It's time by Imagine Dragons and Glee version. Goodnight SEXY PEOPLES! :*

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Editorial Photography.

Hello Bloggers. :)

Again, after a long time of no cam whoring, I started to fiddled back with my camera and took a few shots of my little sister as my model. She has always been my model. Haha. I just want to indulge myself into fashion  editorial photography because it seems so much fun! This is all because of watching too much of America's Next Top Model and reading too much of fashion mag. Well, these are the pictures that I snapped and edited. 

Addicted to Barbie Dolls.

Close up Beauty Shot.
Barbie Doll Maniac #2

Soft and light. 





Motion #2

Motion with smize.

Motion #3

There you have it guys. Let me know what you think of these shots of mine. :) 
It's getting late and I'm sleepy. Goodnight everybody! 


Saturday, February 23, 2013

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Kawan lah sangat. PHUCK YOU!

Okay today's post will be in Bahasa Rojak. I'm so pissed of right now. bukan sebab apa tapi sebab kawan sendiri. haritu bukan main lagi kau baaaa. forever la sangat kann. doigiiahhh. i knew from the starting lg kau memang ada feeling jealous bah sama saya. sampai kau pandai2 cakap orang2 d sana benci saya? whhoooopsss, kau memang suda offside brabis ah. kau nda tau ba cmna kehidupan saya di sana. kau main cakap ja kan? dari dulu lagi ak tahan ba niii kemarahan sama kau. tp nda tau lah cmna ble meletop ni all of a sudden.

i guees you are the type of friend who will only come to me when you are in need of help. not the kind of friend who will stay with me through the ups and downs of life. bila kau sedih and down haritu, punya lah main sial gaya kau. pleading lah sangat. baik ak nda paya kenal kau at the first place. seriously, I regret. I regret of everything! just wait and see for my revenge. just so you know, my revenge is not the mediocre ones. im about to give you the most severe vengeance of all time. i will spread bad things about you. i dont care about karma. this is between me and you. i've had enough of you. you never have thought about me. ever. all you want to talk about is about yourself. ONLY ABOUT YOURSELF. stop being so plastic and illogical. im done being your friend. thanks but no thanks. :)


Saturday, February 9, 2013

Greyson Chance - Sunshine & City Lights.

Hello blogger! Tonight I'm going to write a review on Greyson Chance's latest single entitled Sunshine & City Lights. I hope all of you would agree to my review. Wait, I guess you should agree or at least accept this review. After all, this is MY opinion anyway? :P

First of all, without any doubt his voice is awesome and unique. There are not many of male artists who can sing like how Greyson did. And that is a fact! Although his voice is kind of deep and sometimes can be too big or loud, it doesn't really matters. What matters the most is that he can sing.

Moving on, the lyric of the song is quite clear and not too blurry. I mean, the lyric of the song kind of clearly stated what is the true meaning of the song. For example, the phrase "What you need to find, is someone who will never let you go." obviously indicates that Greyson wanted the girl that he likes, to find someone who will never break up with her. So what I'm trying to say here is that the lyrics to this song is very straight forward and can be understood easily.

Next, the music video is not that excellent but it's not that bad as well. I mean, 2 teenagers sneaking out at night for a date? Can that set a good example to the under aged kids who watched the video? I am very sure it is not. Sneaking out of house at night just to go on a date with your beloved one while you are still 16 is not a good manner. Going out into the city at night just to have fun with your partner is not a good thing either. I'm not being complacent towards Greyson or what, but he should've at least think of his viewers and think about other people's thoughts. But overall it was an okay music video. Wait, no it wasn't just an okay music video. It is just perfect without any futile additional matters.

Just in case you haven't watch the music video, I've inserted the video up there just for your convenience. I hope you guys will visit my blog for more of mediocre stuffs. That's all I can say for today. Thanks for viewing!

Saturday, February 2, 2013


   Hello bloggers! It has been a while since I last posted an entry in my simple blog. If you read my previous entry, I stated that I was mourning for the sake of what I call a 'bitch'. I know it was useless for being sad over someone who doesn't actually loves you, but that's what I've learnt from my mistake. The fact that I was ignored by my crush has got the best of me and left me devastated. But thankfully, I've grown stronger than before and I will surely pursue my life even though nobody wants to love me except for God, my family and my friends. They are the reason why I survived from a period loneliness. I realized that nothing can stop me from continuing my life.

   January had left me devastated and helpless. I thought that I'll never get up after being knocked down by the challenges in life. But I was definitely wrong. I stood up to them and got stronger day by day. Everyday I hope and pray that my life would be better and thankfully it did. Now that I got through the down side of life, I wish after this I'll get the chance to be happy again. I've missed the happy days back then when you were by my side. But this time, I want to be happy only by myself. Without anyone but me. Maybe then, I'll finally understand the state of happiness of being single.

   I wish February would show me the light and get me back on track. There's no use of crying over spilled milk. What I can do now is to improvise and try my best to redeem myself. I'm looking forward to sing in the rain without any hesitation and worries. I will achieve that glorious day and just get done with it forever. What I need is a little motivation and support either from my family or friends or God. I am so ready to face my next challenges in life. One thing for sure, I will never fail myself to achieve what I've always wanted.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


One day you were by my side. Smiling like an idiot. Dancing crazily with a cap on your head. Your height was my only cover from the sunlight. Getting bored of dancing alone, you took my hand and I danced along with you. There was no music though just you humming Olly Murs' song Heart Skips A Beat. Just for once, all of my sorrow was swept away. I was indeed very happy whenever you're with me. I never really thought about you leaving me. All I did think of was eternal happiness.

One day you just disappeared into the darkness and left me grieving. You left me nothing but memories. My heart shattered into millions of tiny and discrete pieces. I was devastated. Nothing could cure the pain you've caused. Everything seems to fall apart and crumble. Revolving doors stopped swinging. Birds stopped chirping. People stopped talking. Music stopped playing. Nothing is how it was back when we were still together. Echoes of your voice is fading away.

Today would be the 30th day of your ignorance towards me. Every morning I wake up, the first thing I do is to check my inbox for any of your messages. But nothing was there except for your old and dusty messages. You used to be my greatest thing, but now you're just a memory to let go of. I swear, the way we say our goodbye is not the way anyone in the world would ever do. Who knew that through ignorance, a strong relationship could fade away and break apart just like that. It's like with the flick of a thumb, our bridge is completely burnt without any chances of it to be stopped.

Like the waves in the ocean, I will always come back for you whenever you are in need of me. I know you probably won't ever come back but I just wish that you would. I've been secretly mourning for a very long time now. I just couldn't stop thinking about the reason you are doing this to me. What did I do wrong? Why did you have to leave me forsaken after all that we've been through together. I'm not being motherly or fatherly, but I just want to know WHY?

I hope you'd still remember about that gift I gave you  last time right after you went home. It is okay if you want to clear any memories about me inside your head. I don't think it's too much to ask for. Perhaps that is what you wanted all this while? You can take what's yours and I will take what's mine. But must we go there? It doesn't have to be this hard. All you need to do is to clear things with me. We don't have to take it this far. If you really value our relationship, pick up the phone and text me or just leave me a voice message. I just want things to be the way it suppose to be. Not the opposite. Love makes life look hard.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Ain't Got No Money In My Pocket.

Good day to all of you gorgeous Popsicles. :)

I've been very unproductive lately. I have no money in my pocket, and my life is a total mess these days. I told my dad that I wanted a driving license, and he said no. It was kind of predictable because with the increase on the cost of a driving license, my parents couldn't afford it. Instead, I was told to find money and pay all the fees all by myself. That caught me off guard. I seriously didn't see that coming.

Since then I thought of getting a job. Not just any kind of job. I want a job with a good pay so that I don't have to work any longer than 2 months. I wish my 2 months of salary can pay all the fees of my driving license. BUT, THAT IS JUST A WISH THAT'S NEVER GOING TO COME TRUE. You wanna know why? Because, I'm such a lazybutt, and I don't enjoy most of the works that are in vacant for any SPM leavers.

I thought harder and finally, I came up with this one brilliant idea which is, to sell CUPCAKES, MUFFINS, AND CAKES. I mean, instead of working for someone, why don't I just work for myself and enjoy? That would be less frustrating and less troubling. But there's only 1 problem and that is, I don't have quite enough money to buy the ingridients all by myself. So I'm thinking of borrowing my parent's money, and I'll pay them later when I've got some profits from my business. I guess they would be okay with my idea. No, I hope they would be okay with my idea of selling cakes. :)

About my field of customers, I'm gonna try to sell it to my juniors at my old secondary school and I'm going to get some help from my little sister in promoting my business among her fellow friends. I'm pretty sure that my plan is going to succeed eventually. I've got the knowledge of making good cakes, and I've got some good flavors that's going to make people go loco and hyped up!

Just in case you have any suggestions about what flavor should I be selling, you can tell me in the comment box below. :)

I hope you guys will support me in this! Thank You for reading, Good Night. :)

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A New Chapter.

Hello dear bloggers and Happy New Year 2013 :)

2012 has come to an end. Out with the old. In with the new. Cherish only the good memories of 2012 and forget about all the bad and bitter memories of 2012. It's time to turn over a new leaf and write a new chapter in our very own lives. This is the opportunity for us whether to change into a better person or just maintain just the way we are. But as for me, I'll sure turn into a far better person than last year. 

Overall, 2012 has been a very tough year for me. Yet, it was a very memorable and sweet year ever. I finally ended my senior year, which turned out to be a very sweet ending. All of us the form 5 students of MRSM Kota Kinabalu, the 7th Batch, finished our SPM examination together and we even celebrated the ending of our senior year with a final barbecue party. It was hell of a time. 

One of my 2012 highlights was also my performance during my formal dinner which also turned out to be my birthday. It was my favorite moment in my life but I was kinda sad because I didn't get the chance to take pictures together with my junior whom I really adore since the day we began to get along. However, I still enjoyed the dinner because all of the girls sang 'Happy Birthday' to me after my performance. And that made me seriously happy and appreciated. :)

I'll miss the pressure that all of the subjects have given me during SPM weeks. That was the time I worked my butt off for the very last time before moving on into University. It was the most pressure-esque week in my whole entire existence. Whew. I'll miss that pressure a lot.

I'll never forget all of my friends in MRSM Kota Kinabalu and SMK SANZAC. :) They are the reason why I survived high school. Without them I'll probably drop out of school because of depression and loneliness. Not forgetting to all of my teachers, a big applause for all of your teachings and motivations. I'll surely try to apply everything in my daily life.

Frankly, there are so many sweet and happy memories throughout the entire year of 2012. It is impossible to for me to list down and elaborate in a short time. Plus, I'm tired because of last night's new year celebration. It was hell of a fun. Perhaps I can tell you some more in the next post.

I think that is all I have to say in this entry. Let's just hope this year will be more memorable than my previous 16 years of living. Until next time, goodbye and Happy New Year 2013. Take care readers.