Friday, July 5, 2013

I Don't Know. Maybe I Miss You.

I don't know what did I do wrong. I don't know what actually happened. I don't know why did you suddenly neglected me. I don't know why in all of a sudden you went silent. I don't know why in all of a sudden you started to glare at me. I don't know what makes you unhappy. I don't know what will make you come back. I don't know when will we start talking. I don't know how will we survive. I don't know what will happen to us in the future. I don't know how to handle with this situation any longer. I DON'T KNOW. 

   Once, we were considered as a thing. Even though it was only for a short period of time but still, memories were made and feelings grew. I miss your jokes. I miss your smile. I miss your smell. I miss your voice. I miss you face. I miss your style. I miss your personality. I  miss your thoughts. I miss sharing problems with you. I miss the times when we used to laugh together. I miss the time when we used to sit next to each other. I miss those moments when you made me smile. I miss the way of how you used to make me smile even when I'm mad. I miss the way you made my friends jealous of what we had. In other words, I miss everything about you and me. 

   Not talking to you isn't something to be proud of or something to feel happy for. It is something we call as neglect. It ain't easy for me to stop talking to you after all we've been through together. I tried to break down the walls of my egoistical creature. However nothing happened. It was such a waste of time and pride. I've tried to live without your humor and positivity and I failed. Nothing seemed to work when you're not around. Now I'm feeling down and helpless at the moment. Been trying to go to sleep without tears swelling and falling from my eyes. Yet again not any of my attempts worked out. 

   I just hope that we could relive those moments back in the golden days. I miss you so badly and I can't stand watching you talk to everyone else except me. I don't want to hate you. I never want to hate you. I just want things to be the way it was. I hope you're doing fine without me. Although at times I caught you staring at me secretly. But I don't dare to make any assumptions. I don't wanna get hurt. If you're reading this, I miss you. Thanks for the memories. All the best in your way. :)