Since that sweet and mesmerizing moment, we became close friends. As time passes by, I finally realize that my tiny crush on her has just got bigger.
At first, I really thought that it was an instant crush but it turns out to be a long one. Every time I set my eyes on hers, I feel a cold rush inside of me. To be frank, I've never felt this way before. Usually, I would only receive a touch of excitement and then it would vanish automatically. But this time, the effects were different. I tried to not to look or talk to her for a day, and all I get was a huge change in my temperature, a hurtful headache and a decrease in weight. I spent days, thinking of a way to make this feeling run away or at least loosen up a bit without hurting her feelings and without making her think bad things about me. I did realize that she do realize about the major changes of how I treat her in public. I always run away from her and I seldom reply her messages. I felt so guilty about my actions.
After days of evading her, she finally asked me about my weird actions. I was speechless and I called her up. It was a 4 minutes call. All that I said to her was about my feelings towards her. She was okay with it and she broke my heart into a million pieces. All this time I thought that she is single, but luck was not by my side, she is not. At that moment, I really feel like a sucker who is trying to confess his feelings towards a girl who already has a soul mate. From that day, my feelings towards her decreased vigorously and right now, I don't think I still have feelings for her any more. Thanks to the Almighty, without His help, I don't think I could survive this pain.