MERDEKA RAYAA.

a very good afternoon i bid to all of you dear readers. :)

it has been 23 days since we started fasting. i'm getting a little bit fatter than i ever expected. i was hoping that i could lose some weight on this year's fasting month as i'm staying on a dormitory. annnnd, you know how it feels like to live in the dormitory(exhausted, bored, bored, annnnd bored.).

in a few days time, i'll be back on board with my family and old friends andddd, i'll be gone shopping for the upcoming RAYA! well, i'm kind of excited about this year's raya because i'll have the chance to shop for my own things on my own, with my own money, and with my own friends! well, you may think that i'm a typical guy living in a typical world. BUT, you are absolutely WRONG. :)

my life is brilliant, my life is pure, i saw an angel...*snapped out of it.

so yeah, i have the awesome-st family ever. i mean, although sometimes we fight, but that's the verdict.

back to the main point, my intention of posting this is that i just want to wish you guys a very happy MERDEKA RAYA. may all of you guys have a blessed and super-awesome raya this year. by the way, NEVER FORGET TO GIVE 'angpau' to the children and not to be forgotten, the TEENS!

once again, HAPPY MERDEKA RAYA! I really hope that Malaysia would reach it's vision before 2020 or by 2020. I LOVE MALAYSIA. :)

p/s : im blogging during class-hour. isn't it just so awesome? yeaaaaaah mannnnn. \m/

_peace out home dawg_

Heartache .

Hi peeps. It's been a very long while since I posted something new. Life as a student in a boarding school ain't that easy when there is no internet connection and a laptop. On this very night I would like to post something about someone I really like the most. I've been ignoring her lately under some reason. Its not because I hate her, but I wanna stay away from her for the benefits of both of us.

Every time I walk pass you, there would be a sudden feeling which I can't really describe. I don't even know why does that feeling came attacking me. But, when I recall, it's something that people call as LOVE. It was a strange feeling because how can I fall in love with a person whom I think already has someone to be loved? Plus, she seemed to be very close to this one particular guy at my school. Every time they meet each other, they'll interact as if they are lovebuds. And to be frank, it bothers me the most when she meets him.

As time passes by, you started to show some signals. You played along my jokes and you started to be open towards me. So, I took a brave step and told her about the feelings that I kept from the start. Unfortunately, my attempt was unsuccessful because I was too nervous to do so. I waited, and waited, and waited, and waited. Until now, I still haven't express my feelings to her yet. Whenever I tried to tell her the real deal, my voice seemed to become sore and phlegm starts to accumulate in my throat. It made me so hard to talk. God, please help me get through this. I want this girl to be mine so badly that I'd sacrifice anything just to get her. She's the sweetest thing I've ever seen and hold.

Goodnight. :)

Maddi Jane .

Here's a video of Maddi Jane singing Jar Of Hearts. She is just so talented and pretty. She has the package. If one day she emerge as a new born star, I'll never be astounded by her appearance. YouTube is best known as a place where people submits their video and be famous. It is also a place where people promote their abilities and capabilities and knowledge. Happy watching ! :)

XOXO

ANTM Cycle 16 : Brittani Kline.

Being addicted to America's Next Top Model (ANTM) since 12 years old is definitely weird for a guy or any male in the universe. Boys are usually connected to rough and extreme things. But for me, I am more to the other side of down. I've been living in a family with so many females in it and I'm getting used to girls stuffs. I admit, I do have some male cousins but they're too young and too old for me to talk to. In conclusion, I am more to girls' stuffs rather than clinging myself to the rough and extreme part of life.

Aside from the above, the actual purpose of me posting this is that I want to tell you about the latest ANTM winner, Brittani Kline. It is the Cycle 16 this year and for the past 3 year, I've been starting to like and agree to the decisions made about the winners. Cycle 13, 14, 15, and 16 has been the best cycles ever. The winners were chose according to their ability in modelling.

Cycle 13 Winner : Nicole Fox.

Cycle 14 Winner : Krista White

Cycle 15 Winner : Ann Ward

Cycle 16 Winner : Brittani Kline

So, what do you think about these models? They are truly magnificent and awesome aren't they? :)

Since Cycle 15, ANTM has been upgraded to a new level. It was elevated. From editorial fashion, to high fashion. Couture. From Wilhelmina Models agency, to IMG Models agency. Everything is all about high fashion. That is the reason why I like modelling. And to be frank, ANTM is why I start editorial photography. I want to be like the noted fashion photographer, Nigel Barker. :)

Back to the main point, Brittani Kline has been a very competitive contestant since the first photoshoot. From week to week, she improvised herself and produced superb pictures. Although she didn't win best photos 3 week in a row like Molly did, she eventually manage to emerge as the winner. Even Mrs. Banks said that she has the fresh look almost like an urban chic with some couture girl feature, which is why she was chosen as the winner.

All in all, she is indeed the next top model. She received a contract with IMG Models, one of the most influential model agency in the entire world (that's what Tyra said.). She will also be shooting a spread of Italian Vogue Magazine and a 6 page spread in 'Beauty in Vogue'. Lastly, she will be featured on www.vogue.it and 100,000$ contract with Covergirls. Simply amazing for a remarkable model.

Brittani Kline, you are amazing just the way you are. And I'm in love with your pictures. :)

XOXO

sweet memory. :)

| 28 . 05 . 2011 |

it was the day where my friends and I went to the shopping complex and had tons of FUN. 5 persons walk side by side into the realm of happiness. we had our lunch at Pizza Hut. ordered 2 kinds of pizzas and finished everything by 1:20pm. watched Pirates Of The Carribean : On Strangers Tide at 1:30pm and enjoyed it cause it was a fantastic + boring movie. sang lots of songs in the karaoke center until my throat got very sick. 3 persons went home, 2 left. the remaining 2 went to the bowling center and bowled 2 sets of match. then, it was time to say goodbyes.

Instant Crush.

She was sitting next to me. Talking about her love life, and the guy she really likes. I was trying to pay attention to what she was talking about but I just couldn't find the will to do so, because the glow in her eyes were too intriguing. I end up looking into her eyes instead of listening to what she said. Abruptly, she stopped talking and looked at me as if wondering what made me so focused towards her eyes. She took out a mirror and examined every inch of her face. Her movement startled me and I broke out of the fantasy in her eyes. Both of us smiled and laughed after a few minutes. While laughing, our eyes met each other as if it is attached through an invisible bond.

Since that sweet and mesmerizing moment, we became close friends. As time passes by, I finally realize that my tiny crush on her has just got bigger.

At first, I really thought that it was an instant crush but it turns out to be a long one. Every time I set my eyes on hers, I feel a cold rush inside of me. To be frank, I've never felt this way before. Usually, I would only receive a touch of excitement and then it would vanish automatically. But this time, the effects were different. I tried to not to look or talk to her for a day, and all I get was a huge change in my temperature, a hurtful headache and a decrease in weight. I spent days, thinking of a way to make this feeling run away or at least loosen up a bit without hurting her feelings and without making her think bad things about me. I did realize that she do realize about the major changes of how I treat her in public. I always run away from her and I seldom reply her messages. I felt so guilty about my actions.

After days of evading her, she finally asked me about my weird actions. I was speechless and I called her up. It was a 4 minutes call. All that I said to her was about my feelings towards her. She was okay with it and she broke my heart into a million pieces. All this time I thought that she is single, but luck was not by my side, she is not. At that moment, I really feel like a sucker who is trying to confess his feelings towards a girl who already has a soul mate. From that day, my feelings towards her decreased vigorously and right now, I don't think I still have feelings for her any more. Thanks to the Almighty, without His help, I don't think I could survive this pain.

Alhamdulillah. :)

Minggu Bahasa Zon Barat 2011 : Glorious Victory.

Hello again dear bloggers! I am so sorry for not updating my blog for a very long time indeed. So, on 16th of April 2011 until 19th of April 2011, my friends and I went to Negeri Sembilan for the Language Week. And guess what? My drama team brought glorious victory back to Sabah. And not to be forgotten, to my unfortunate friends, don't be sad for your loss in the competition, there's always a next time. :)

And FYI, I was awarded the Best Actor! That was definitely the highlight of my year as a 16teen year old boy. I never thought that I would ever be awarded such an award on such a lovely day. Also, on that very day, I found someone whom I thought would make me happy for the rest of my life. I am very sure that she is the right person. But, I can't set high hopes because anything can happen.

All in all, it was such a GREAT experience. And for a newcomer like me, being awarded the Best Actor is indeed the best thing that has ever happened in my entire life as an MRSM-ian.

Well, I guess that's all for tonight. goodbye and goodnight peeps. :)

Roger and Out.