another 2 more weeks to go before my technical training takes place. these hours and seconds left really needed to be spent wisely. balancing between family and friends is definitely ain't easy. for sometimes I prefer to be with my friends rather than with my family and vice versa.
I'm really sad for the fact that I may not be going back to Sabah during this upcoming Hari Raya celebration because of the expensive and all time hiking flight ticket price. It kills me slowly everyday for I can't imagine how will I stand not celebrating Hari Raya with my loved ones. and perhaps I should avoid scrolling through my instagram feeds because I'm pretty sure that people will upload pictures of them enjoying their Hari Raya celebration next to their loved ones and I'm also really sure that I'll get jealous.
currently waiting for my allowance to be banked in to my account. my friends say we should get the allowance by this week but I don/t really think that way though. hmm I seriously need money.
Because of my heavy procrastination, I am now in rusty and dusty state of mind. I can't really think fast and how to construct a good post. I'm getting really slow nowadays. And for that, I might have to write everyday so that my I can get back to my optimal 'brain-speed' (if that's even a word).
I've seen too many movies that at some point in my life, I pretend like I'm in a movie. Not in those happy movies, but more to the sad ones. Usually in movies, they made it somehow a whole lot easier to find love and to keep love until eternity. I mean like two strangers bumped into each other and coffee spilled on both of them. Then both of them got really mad because at the same time they were late for work. After a few minutes in the movie, voila, they fell in love! From being mad towards each other, they suddenly got rid of the anger and fell in love with one another! And the next thing you know, they decided to get married! Don't you see it yet? How easy it is to find love in movies?
However, if you wake up and open your eyes and come back to reality, it is NEVER THAT EASY! You get to go through loads kinds of problems and obstacles and dilemmas and complications and misunderstandings and many more to come! Can't you see that it ain't always the same as it is in the theaters? Hahh. That's why I kinda regret of watching too many movies and to believe in everything that I watch. At the end of the day, all of it were just lies and dishonesty. It's definitely hard to find love and to help it to remain as long as possible. I don't wanna talk more of this because this will just be my next never ending rants.
I can't really remember when was the last time I go out to enjoy the night breeze, seeing the city lights, listen to good music, meeting good friends, hearing good stories, and most of all breathing in flavorful shisha. What I can recall is the feeling that comes along with the experience.
Being a semi-adult is one of the life-stages that is not easy to be dealt with. There are college pressure, relationship pressure, parents pressure, peer pressure, and life pressure. Yes, everything is about the never ending pressure. But what deviates all of us from being the same boring person is the way we compromise with the pressures. For some people, they would rather hurt themselves, thinking that it would make their problems a bit lighter. While some other would rather do it the healthier way, which is to talk to someone about their complications. And then here comes the people whom mix all of the methods together. What I'm trying to say is that they do it both sick and healthy way. I see these people as the 'inventive ones'. Don't ask me why because even I don't understand why did I label them that way.
Okay enough with those illogical analogy that actually has nothing to do with what I wanna write now.
During my high school years, frankly enough I was the naive boy. I did everything good and left everything bad. Or in other words, I was stupid and immature. Then, a few months after I left high school, a bunch of my friends introduced me to some 'horrible' activities. They convinced me (well I was curious too) to try shisha. And that was my first night out with friends without any parental advisory.
At first I was kinda scared and anxious of how it would taste like and how it would affect my lungs. Plus, I think doing shisha is not a really healthy thing to do. But for the sake of my curiosity, I did it anyway. After my very first puff of shisha, I felt as if I was slowly floating into the air. Then right after a few sniffs, I started to feel so light and airy which made me sang songs that even I don't know it was in my repertoire. Hahaha but yeah all of my friends laughed hard at my lame reactions towards the gassy flavorful thingy.
As I got deeper into the night, I realized about the wonders of the nightlife in city. You get to see the street lamps. You get to know how it feels like when the chilly night breeze hits your skin. You get to listen to good musics that you've never heard before. You get to see how do some people act at night. You get to know lots of new stuffs and live up to new experiences. That's how good it is to be outside of the house at night.
It's not necessary for you to do shisha at night to feel the fascination of nightlife in city. And you don't really need to be with your friends. You can also be all by yourself to notice the bewilderment.
So yeah, I think that's all for now.
Open up your eyes and start looking for new experiences instead of being in the same old boring box.
Okay, I have to admit that the Divergent movie really did give a stupendous effect on my taste of songs. I used to be the kind of guy who listens only to RnB, ballad, and pop. But since I watched Divergent, a new kind of sound came in through my ears which is electro house musics! Frankly speaking, I seriously hated the genre of the music. Plus, the music arrangement is kinda too heavy and mind boggling for me. However, everything changed just because of the Divergent movie soundtracks! Zedd's Find You was tremendously awesome, and same goes to Ellie Goulding's Beating Heart which happens to be in the same genre as Zedd.
I really thought that electro house musics do not contain meaningful lyrics but clearly I was wrong! They even have deeper meanings instead of simple ones! I won't let my mouth do the talking, but here you go, I'll let the music speaks for itself.
Find You - Zedd ft. Matthew Koma & Miriam Bryant
Ellie Goulding - Beating Heart
So yeah, aside from Zedd and Ellie Goulding, I also have been listening to Paramore. From their first album, live performances until their latest album which was self entitled. Below are my favorite Paramore songs:
Paramore - Part II
Paramore - Last Hope
Paramore - Ain't It Fun
I guess those are all for now. Oh and I've been keeping up to date to this new reality tv show from astro which is "The Band". It's actually a good show to be watched because you'll see the vast improvements of some of the contestants and it also includes 1 contestant from Indonesia and 1 contestant from Singapore which are still in the running of becoming the first Malaysian singing group to be exposed to the whole wide world (As far as I'm concerned of). Anyways, for more info on this show, you can log on to www.theband.com.my .
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I really like it when you know what you're doing. I really like it when you try to brush off the awkwardness and the tension between both of us. I really like it when you're honest with me. I really like it when you smile. I really like the fact that you know so much about me and that you try to understand me as deep as you can. I really like it when we share that same weird but full of secrets gaze. I really like it when you start talking about how your day was and how you're feeling. I really like everything that you do. If only I could keep every piece of you in a box and make you mine. Life would totally be happier.
Hello everybody. I don't know why the hell am I posting this kind of stuff into my blog because I have never done anything like this before. Ya know, the kind of posts which gives ideas and tips on how to do this and that. It's as if I'm experienced enough to give tips. Despite my lack of experience, I just had the sudden urge to share with you guys on how to get over your so called ex or crush for a certain period of time. I can't guarantee you forever though. hahaha
# 1: KEEP AWAY FROM LOOKING AT PICTURES OF YOU BOTH.
I know there has been a lot of people who suggests that deleting those picture of you and her/him is the best way to erase him/her from your mind and your whole entire life. BUT, don't you think it's such a waste to delete those beautiful and perfect captured memories? I mean, some of you may have worked their asses off just to take a picture with their crush because we all know how hard it is right? hahaha. As for those who were already in love, I also think that you don't necessarily have to delete those wonderful memories because one day later when you finally got over him/her, you will eventually laugh over the past. For the mean time, just keep those photos in a hidden place or even better, ask your best buddy to hide those photos from you. This will surely help you in getting over the love if you remain disciplined and focused.
# 2: DECREASE THE AMOUNT OF CONTACT
It is undeniably true that you still keep his/her phone number, you still follow him/her on twitter and instagram just to get his/her latest update right? You're so curious to know whether he/she has found someone better and someone newer than you. The thing you should really start doing is to lower the amount of contact. Just hit the unfollow button and stop sending ruthful messages as you know that the feeling is not the same anymore between you guys. So just suck it up cause by hook or by crook you'll find someone way prettier and way hotter than your current ex.
# 3: STOP LISTENING TO SAD SONGS.
I'm pretty sure that the contents of your playlists are nothing but sad songs and songs which reminds you of your ex. Believe me, it will never take you anywhere. It will only make things worse and make your life even worser that it is.Well people, it's time to shake things out with songs like these:
Icona Pop // I Don't Care
Notable lyrics:
I don't care, I love it. I don't care.
The All American Rejects // Gives You Hell
Notable lyrics:
When you see my face,
Hope it gives you hell,
Hope it gives you hell
Carly Rae Jepsen // Tonight I'm Getting Over You
Notable lyrics:
I wanna touch your heart,
I wanna crush it in my hands
Cee Lo Green // Forget You
Notable lyrics:
And although there's pain in my chest I still wish you the best with a... Forget you!
Kristina Debarge // Goodbye
Notable lyrics:
I don't care if I never see you again I'll be alright Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together But either way, baby, I'm gone
Ashley Tisdale // It's Alright It's Okay
Notable lyrics:
It's alright it's okay,
I'm so much better without you,
I won't be sorry
Man Overboard // How To Hide Your Feelings
Notable lyrics::
Gotta hole in my head that stretches from ear to ear
I dug it out because I couldn't take the fear
And if I can't think
Well I guess I can't sink down
And I won't waste another year
Your Biggest Mistake // Ellie Goulding
Notable lyrics:
You know this is your biggest mistake What a waste, what a waste, what a waste And of all the things you never explained You know this is your biggest mistake
# 4: KEEP YOURSELF BUSY.
This one tip here is very popular among all tips that I've ever heard of because it really does give a good impact. Attend to music classes, find a job, start baking, start cooking, start farming I don't care what you're gonna do but as long as it will keep your hands off of your phone and your mind off of the thoughts of your ex. The point here is that you really should keep your mind focused on something else instead of remembering the dusty memories of you and your ex. Try it to believe it.
Well there you have it people, 4 tips on getting over your ex or your crush. Truth be unfolded, the only thing that's keeping you from getting over someone is yourself. You have to be stronger than you are now because in the end of the day nobody will help you unless you help yourself out. Enough playing with those memories and start focusing on something new that will assist you in getting over those feelings and affections and emotions that is no longer there to linger with you. Just remember to stay focused, stop reminiscing, stay positive and most of all believe in yourself that you can do it.
Thanks for reading, Goodnight!
p/s : I personally love the song choices that I stated above because all of them really worked out for me.
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I knew I didn't want to go back Sabah when I realized of how boring and dull it will be if I go back home. Basically, I will have to stay home alone and not having anyone to talk to. Most of my friends are still in college by the time get back home and that makes it even more boring because I won't have any purpose to go out. To make things a little bit more sadder, I don't have a driving license and a car. Yeah my life sucks and freaking boring I know it.
Being the first child ain't always like how you think it would turn out to be. I don't get treated like one, I don't get what I want, I don't get what others get and I don't enjoy my life as much as I enjoyed living with my friends. Living with your friends definitely feels way different than living with your family. It is as if you are free to do anything you'd like. Try living with your friends lah then you'll know how much more fun it is rather than to stay home with family. I'm NOT saying that I hate my family okay. It's just that they're not that outgoing.
I'm too bored to write anymore. I'll continue later perhaps with something else. Currently reading the perks of being a wallflower.
