Last week I retrieved my result via the college's students portal and my result was pretty amazing since I've never been this 'clever' back in secondary school. Hahahaha. Hell yeah I was extremely nervous while waiting for the result to come out. It was more nerve wrecking than waiting for my SPM result earlier this year. Well I bet you people want to know what's my result right? Here you go,
Just in case you can't see clearly, my CGP is 3.89 and I was very shocked and excited and truly happy when I knew it. But I still can't believe that I managed to get as colorful as this result.
I just finished watching The Mortal Instruments right as we speak. I couldn't sleep so I decided to watch movies. So basically the movie pretty much caught my full attention and it really kept me awake throughout the entire 2 hours of screening. This movie is filled with romance and action and magic and that's what kept my eyes wide open. The genre suites me well as far as I could see. Same goes to the movies 'I Am Number Four' and 'Beastly'. These 2 are my most favorite movies ever since puberty. Hahahaha. I must've thought that these kinds of movies shows my level of maturity which is not that matured anyway. :p
In conclusion, Mortal Instruments was da bomb and my result was awesome! So happy and SATISFIED. I think that's all for today, I'm going to bed. Goodnight people! :D
It has been weeks since I last posted any entries and it was all because of procrastination.
So it is now 3:53 am in the morning and I just woke up because of a bad dream. That bad dream left me wide awake and now I am unable to go back to sleep. While I'm wide awake, I've been thinking of how happy I would be if there's someone in my life who cares for me just like how my parents do. Instantly I speak to myself that I would be happier than I am in present. But sadly enough, I don't have anybody else who cares for me just like how my parents do. All I have is my parents.
It's not like I'm being ungrateful or what, but I somehow feel envy of few of my friends who can get someone to love them besides from their own parent. And this thought somehow left me feeling lonely. Yes. I am feeling lonely in the middle of the night. I bet those who has girlfriends/boyfriends can easily call their partners to calm them down at times like these. While you guys enjoy your sweet talks with your partners, here I am still feeling lonely and isolated.
I once feel so loved and cared by someone and it felt so good thoroughly. However, that was last time. Now, when I even tried to reach out to that person, I don't get any reply. It's like I'm forgotten and stoned. The fact that I miss the person who used to care and love me is really bugging me and sometimes I feel so aggravated just for the sake of this terrible fondness.
Until now, I am still feeling lonely and isolated and forgotten. I hope someday my luck will change and happiness will kick in to my life.
I don't know what did I do wrong. I don't know what actually happened. I don't know why did you suddenly neglected me. I don't know why in all of a sudden you went silent. I don't know why in all of a sudden you started to glare at me. I don't know what makes you unhappy. I don't know what will make you come back. I don't know when will we start talking. I don't know how will we survive. I don't know what will happen to us in the future. I don't know how to handle with this situation any longer. I DON'T KNOW.
Once, we were considered as a thing. Even though it was only for a short period of time but still, memories were made and feelings grew. I miss your jokes. I miss your smile. I miss your smell. I miss your voice. I miss you face. I miss your style. I miss your personality. I miss your thoughts. I miss sharing problems with you. I miss the times when we used to laugh together. I miss the time when we used to sit next to each other. I miss those moments when you made me smile. I miss the way of how you used to make me smile even when I'm mad. I miss the way you made my friends jealous of what we had. In other words, I miss everything about you and me.
Not talking to you isn't something to be proud of or something to feel happy for. It is something we call as neglect. It ain't easy for me to stop talking to you after all we've been through together. I tried to break down the walls of my egoistical creature. However nothing happened. It was such a waste of time and pride. I've tried to live without your humor and positivity and I failed. Nothing seemed to work when you're not around. Now I'm feeling down and helpless at the moment. Been trying to go to sleep without tears swelling and falling from my eyes. Yet again not any of my attempts worked out.
I just hope that we could relive those moments back in the golden days. I miss you so badly and I can't stand watching you talk to everyone else except me. I don't want to hate you. I never want to hate you. I just want things to be the way it was. I hope you're doing fine without me. Although at times I caught you staring at me secretly. But I don't dare to make any assumptions. I don't wanna get hurt. If you're reading this, I miss you. Thanks for the memories. All the best in your way. :)
This one is going to be just a quick update about where I'm continuing my studies now and what's happening in my life currently.
Okay, now I'm currently continuing my studies in the foundation level here in Kolej MARA Kuala Nerang, Kedah. I'm taking foundation in science and technology or most likely known as foundation in engineering. It has been almost a month after I registered here. Good news, I'm not the only one from Sabah. There are a few of my friends of the same school.
I was kind of fascinated when I first got into this so called 'college life'. My first thought on college life is that we will never be attached with those shitty rules ever again, we can arrange our own timetable, pick our own roommates, and most of all, the eternal freedom. But I was wrong.
WE STILL HAVE TO FOLLOW THE RULES.
WE CAN'T ARRANGE OUR OWN TIMETABLE.
WE CAN'T CHOOSE OUR OWN ROOMMATES.
and last but not least,
WE CAN'T HAVE THAT ETERNAL FREEDOM.
It is kind of stressful for me because I'm not the kind of person who loves following rules and regulations. And I'm not the kind of person who'd like their classes be arranged by someone. And I'm not the kind of person who can cope up easily with new environment and new friends. I need time and space. On top of everything, all I want is FREEDOM. Living with rules is just so like secondary school. I hate it.
As for my love life, I'm having a crush on this one person in particular but still the person doesn't and will never know about my feelings. As always.
I guess that's all for this quick update. Its already 1:06 am and I need to sleep. Goodnight people! :)
I'm missing my friends. Among my friends, there is someone whom I have a crush on. So that makes it a combo. I miss my crush and my friends. Haha. I'm still spending my holidays at home hoping that some kind of miracle would happen and take me away to somewhere fun and memorable. It's killing me slowly to sit home and do nothing. Literally, nothing at all. So, last morning, Beastly was on HBO. Since there was nothing better to watch, I stayed on that channel. There was this one particular scene of the movie where both Kyle and Lindy was at the rooftop and they read 'Having A Coke With You' poem. Okay in my opinion, this scene is so romantic and so deep. This is my favorite scene throughout the entire movie. Here's the poem :
Having a Coke with You
is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything as still as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s in the Frick which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together the first time and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider as carefully as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it
Hello blog. I just got my SPM examination result yesterday and I didn't get straight A's. My result is pretty much one of the lowest in my school, and among my friends in real life. Until now I'm feeling a bit miserable because I didn't achieve my target which is to get above 6A's. But at least I got an A+ on my Mathematics and an A- for both Chemistry and Biology. I was shocked to know that I scored these subjects. Because when I was still studying in MRSM Kota Kinabalu, I have never got an A for Chemistry but as for Biology, I kind of expected it to be an A-. Above all, I am very proud and grateful to Allah the almighty for He has given me an average result without any C's and D's.
Now what I've got to do is try to get over with my result and smile ahead of everything. As the saying goes, Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining. This might not be the end, but this is certainly the start of something incredible. To those who excelled their SPM examination, I would like to congratulate you. As for those who did not excel their SPM examination, I wish you all the luck in the world in facing the roughs and toughs of life. One advice from me, don't give up easily. Who knows after this you'll beat the other kids who excelled their SPM examination? Only God knows what will happen.
I'm still sad now but I'm certain that I'll be okay after a few short grieving underneath my pillow. I think that's all for tonight, Goodnight. :)
Today I went out to some places with few of my best friends to release all the stress and pressure that has been accumulated in our beautiful body for quite a very long time. At first I was a bit worried about going out 2 days before the SPM examination result to be announced. I mean, who knows if the happiness I felt before I get my result would affect my result? Sorry for being to superstitious. Hahaha.
I woke up early this morning just because of this hangout thingy. But I didn't take my shower directly after I woke up. Instead, I made myself a simple breakfast. Which is an egg sandwich. You know, you fried an egg sunny side up on a frying pan and put it in between two slices of breads with some chili sauce and butter. That is what I call as the simple but PERFECT egg sandwich. Oh you can also garnish your sandwich with some lettuces if you want it to be healthy. :)
Back to the story. After I finished my simple breakfast, I went upstairs and played the guitar just to waste some moments because it was only 8:40 a.m. and I needed to go out at 9:40 a.m. That's a 1 hour gap! Hahaha. To make this story short, I ended up being ready at 9:50 a.m. and I was a bit guilty when Hafiz told me that he was already at Wawasan Plaza waiting for me and the others. I rushed through the stairs and ran through the doors. As time goes by, I was already on the bus making my way to the city.
It was a big relief when I saw Hafiz sitting on the mini stairs on the entrance. After a short conversation between both of us, we went into the mall and waited for the others to arrive. While waiting, Hafiz bought a new pair of Fippers slipper and changed his shoes immediately. I guess he was not feeling comfortable wearing his shoes. It was already 10:30 a.m. and neither Ashraf nor Audrey has arrived yet. Hafiz was a bit pissed off because all of us promised to meet there exactly at 10:00 a.m. but I was the only one who arrived right on time. *gave my self a tap on the back*
Ashraf made it earlier than Audrey did. Ashraf was sent by his friend while Audrey took the hot and stuffy bus. When all 4 of us were there, Ashraf changed the plan a bit because he decide to take a cab instead of the hot and stuffy bus. I was kind of surprised because I have never took a cab around the city. And I was more surprised when Ashraf paid the taxi fare all by his own money. I really thought that we were going to share our money and pay it together but obviously I was wrong.
As we arrived at the beach, which was our first destination of happiness, we got out of the taxi and headed straight to the public washroom to change. Well only Hafiz and Ashraf changed their pants. I didn't bring any. Same goes to Audrey. Then we chose a perfect spot to sit and rest. I was grateful because the weather turned out to be great. No rains but only clouds and the sun. Too bad I didn't bring my extra shorts because if I did bring, I could sit on the sand and make things out of it. But never mind. After we settled down for some times, Ashraf and Audrey went to the nearest stall to buy some drinks while Hafiz and I stayed under the roof. It wasn't long before I started to fiddled with my camera and took some pictrures.
After a few snapshots, Ashraf and Audrey came back from the stall. They also wanted to take pictures and join in the fun. Oh note that Ashraf is wearing the blue shirt while Audrey is the one who is wearing the red shirt.
Those were the only pictures I can upload to you because most of the pictures at the beach is not that good for public viewers. Hahaha.
It was almost 1:00 p.m. when we took off from the beach to go to our next destination. And again, Ashraf paid the taxi fare. Thanks so much Ashraf! This time I sat next to the driver seat so I didn't get the chance to talk crap with the others at the passengers seat. But never mind. So our next destination for happiness was at OneBorneo Hypermall! Frankly I was so excited because it has been a very long time since I got into this large shopping mall. I think the last time I went here was during the Education Carnival last month. As soon as we got into the mall, things were kind of blurry because all of us haven't decide on what to do. I suggested that we try the archery which is located at the same floor as the 1Fitness Gym. If I'm not mistaken, the 3rd floor? Oh and again, Ashraf paid the expenses. Thanks a LOT Ashraf! Just so you readers know, that was my first time playing with bows and arrows. It was not that fun though. I don't know why. But I feel like I'm the Robin Hood or Katniss Aberdeen. Hahaha. Here are some pictures.
Again, I felt guilty to Hafiz because I didn't take a picture of him with his bow. Sorry Hafiz.
After we've build up our accuracy and strength, we went to the next activity. Bowling! At first all of us were so interested and excited about bowling. After all, it has been quite a long time since we last played bowling. We got to the bowling station and asked about the price per game. I was madly shocked because it costs only RM5.50 per game! That is a ton of difference between the bowling station at OneBorneo and Centerpoint which costs RM7.00 per game!. BUT, the condition of the bowling alley was extremely disappointing. The bowling balls? They were ugly. We even had to change to a different lane because of the BAD condition of the bowling alley. It was pretty funny. Hahaha. Ashraf won the whole game and Audrey came in 2nd place while Hafiz came in 3rd. I LOST. But, whatever. I didn't get the chance to snap any pictures because I was crazily infatuated with the bowling balls. Hahaha. Just kidding. And still, Ashraf paid the bills of the bowling fees. Thanks very much Ashraf!
Obviously, all of us got tired because of the activities we did. So Ashraf decided to have our lunch. Still, we were stuck in the middle of the walkway because we didn't know where and what to eat. There were so many choices to be made. For that, we chose to eat KFC. It's affordable, tasty and finger lickin' good! Pictures are as follows :
Clearly, we enjoyed every bits of the fried chicken. But listening to Ashraf's life stories as a chef was more interesting. I can't tell you anything because all of his stories are considered as a top secret. Oh, my friend Azizzami Raidin did call Hafiz while Ashraf was busy telling stories. However I didn't talk to him. In fact, I didn't want to talk to him. Because I want to listen to his stories lively in front of him with my own bare ears. Just so you know, Ashraf paid the expenses again. I couldn't thank you more Ashraf!
The clock struck 4:00 p.m. and it was time to say goodbye to OneBorneo Hypermall. Audrey needed to be at home before 6:00 p.m. or else he will be grounded. Well, he is still 16 years old and under the supervision of his parents. We nearly took the bus but Ashraf didn't want to feel stuffy and all so we took the taxi again. The fare was also paid by Ashraf. I love you bro!
We arrived at Centrepoint KK nearly 5:30 p.m. As I've mentioned earlier, Audrey needed to be at home before 6:00 p.m. so we escorted him to the exit and said our farewells. Our farewells wasn't short. It took us almost half an hour just to say farewell to him. The moment Audrey left was saddening. But we got over the feeling just when Ashraf decided to survey for cellphones. There were lots of choices to be made by Ashraf but after we drank Yoyo's Milky Tea and walked around the mall for some moments, he finally made his bold choice. He decided to buy BlackBerry Bold 9780 if I'm not mistaken. Hahaha correct me if I'm wrong Ashraf. (If he does read this.)
Suddenly I got a phone call from my mom saying that she wanted me to get home as soon as possible. I was so shocked and I panicked. But in the end my mom wasn't that mad. She just wanted me to be careful at all times. This is ALL BECAUSE OF THE SULU STANDOFF IN LAHAD DATU. CURSE YOU SULU. Exactly at 7:00 p.m. all of us walked to the exit. I almost took the bus but since I was terrified of PILAKS and SULU, I decided to take a cab instead. Well, all 3 of us actually took the cab. Hahaha. Just as I was about to take out my wallet, Ashraf abruptly lend RM50 to the taxi driver. Man, I was shocked as hell. He paid everything! I was speechless.
The time was ticking and I needed to get home as soon as possible. All of us got into our respected cabs. I was in the same taxi as Hafiz since we're on the same way. Ashraf had to be alone because of the opposite direction that we were to head. Thankfully ALL 4 of us safely arrived at our own house.
Today was such an amazing day for all 4 of us. There's nothing better than a good friendship that has been reunited. After all, what friends are for if they don't make you happy and do crazy stuffs? Life would be lonely if friends do not exist.
I think that's all for today's post. I'm tired and I need some sleep. Goodnight. I leave you with a song by Fun. It's perfect for this post. Until next time, goodbye readers. :)
