Alter-Ego.

Do you ever feel like you want to change yourself and get down dirty? Do you ever feel like you want to turn everything upside down is your life? Well, my answer to my question is, YES. I've always wanted to turn things around in my life. I want to feel the excitement of ignoring the norms of life. I want to feel what it is like to be loved and cared by a person whom I think is gorgeous and super beautiful. Although I know that the relationship wouldn't last until we're old and rusty. But, that's the point of having an early birdie lovey-dovey feeling ya know. So that you can feel the sexual pleasure and other things as well, such as the feeling of being appreciated, and loved.

Watching those who have girlfriends and boyfriends, it sometimes made me jealous of what they have. They could feel what I felt, touch and say what I said. What I mean with that is, I was in love with someone and I've  been into relationships but the only thing that I didn't do is to touch her. I didn't have the courage to do so. It's not like I'm a religious person who will never touch a girl, but, that's the norm of life that we must follow. After years of my breakup, I finally realize that I was wrong. I was in the line waiting like a douche-bag to start my move. Now, I'm lonely with hopes that someone out there would want to be with me. Not that I'm dying to have one, but that is what I 'need' for the time being. My life is so dull without love and affection.

Despite those sadness that I'm feeling while being single, there are also some reasons to be happy and satisfied during my single years. Firstly, I can flirt with ANYBODY. 'Anybody' refers to male and female. And, just in case you're wondering,Yes. Sometimes I flirt with guys as well just to know whether I am lovable on both sides or not. To my amazement, I caught some fishes.*wink* But, the relationship was abandoned and the guy who thinks I'm gay, was heart broken. HAHA. It was a funny thing to know that I am also lovable on the male side. I mean, I'm not that 'hot' or 'handsome' or super duper 'hunky'. I just LOVE to flirt. :)

Secondly, when I'm single, LESS money were spent on buying prepaid top ups. Instead, MORE money spent on shopping! Oh, yes, I am a shopaholic. I am probably the biggest shopaholic ever in my entire family. Well, I only go shopping when there's a big sale going on or if I have sufficient pocket money, I'd seriously go shopping with my beloved cousin. Shopping is just my thing. Even though some people may judge me the way my body looks like, I don't give a damn. Hell to the NO.

Lastly, when I'm single, I can eat as much as I want. I don't have to look after my weight every week just to please my girlfriend. In my point of view, losing weight for someone you love is a great thing to be done. But, having to look after your diet and eat LESS carbs just to look good. Huh. That is called killing yourself. It is better to have freedom in your eating habits. Ya know? F-R-E-E-D-O-M. Freedom.

All in all, being in a relationship is great but being single until you've managed to find the right person at the right moment, that is what I call a pure relationship. You don't have to think about your future anymore, because you are in the future by that time. Well, at least you've got to plan ahead so that your children will live a life worth living. That's all from me.

XOXO
Roger&Out.

A Friend In Need, Is A Friend Indeed.

Hello bloggers. :)

I just got back from Tambunan, my hometown. So, if you're expecting me to be extremely exhausted, I AM. :))

Based on the title, it is very obvious that I'm going to write about someone that I adore and love the most. The person is,*drums rolling* Khairul Akmal Bin Kula or better known as Ello Bijak in his Facebook account.

7th July 2008 was the historical and important date for both of us since that was the first day we've known each other. To be frank, I have never interact with him before 7th July 2008. All I did was walk past him or to be straight, ignored him. HAHA. However, everything turned 360 degrees when a friend of mine accidentally left me and him on a table in the cafeteria. ALONE. That is where things got more and more interesting.

I was writing something on a book when he suddenly broke the silence. If I'm not mistaken, these were the dialogues I remembered.

Akmal : *sliding his fingers through a random page in my book.* wui, aku suka ni pegang2 yang bekas kena tulis di belakang kertas ni. kadang2 pandai juga aku termimpi2 time pegang2 ni bongol2 kecil. haha.

Me : oh ya ka? ummm, lain juga. haha.

tut.tut.tut.tut.tut.....
And that is all that I remembered. HAHA. Sorry.

As time goes by, both of us began to be more rapidly seeing each other most of the time. But, there is that 1 thing that made both of us very close. Singing. :) I don't know why, but, singing somehow made us closer day by day. Oh, and we frequently escaped the assembly. We were so baddass back then. *smiling like a freak.

2009, secrets were broken and BAM, we became BEST FRIENDS. :)
Since then, he taught me how to be this and that and so many things! He's kind of my role-model. HAHA. We often share our thoughts about things and most of all, PEOPLE. Although sometimes people label us as GAYS.  WE DON'T GIVE A DAMN YA KNOWW. \m/  cuhs we ROCK!

2010 was the climax of our friendship. BEST FRIENDS has been upgraded to BFFs. On the first midterm holidays, I slept at his house for 2 days and it was friggin awesome. That was the first time my father allowed  me to go for a sleepover at my friend's house and I was so damn happy. 1 whole night we didn't sleep because there were too much stories finally unfolded. Oh, PMR was around the corner and we did some revision. :3 *we were like angels back in 2010. haha. When the results were out, another mystery was revealed. WE ARE COUSINS. Yep, long distanced cousins. I mean, VERY LONG.

2011, we separated into our own ways. I went to MRSM and he went to Sabah College. It was quite saddening ya know. We've been on the same school for 3 years and separated. Well, our friendship didn't end on that very day though. We're still in contact even though we're miles and miles away. Facebook is always there for us. DiGi enhances our communication. So yeah, we're still BFFs.

To sum everything up, I just want to say that, a Friend is someone who you can count on for the rest of your life. But please make sure that your friends are F-R-I-E-N-D-S. :) That's all for tonight.

Adios.
Roger and Out.

Me, Myself and I.

Hello my dear bloggers.

The holidays has begun and likewise, I'll be staying at home with my other siblings. Today my siblings went back to our 'kampong' or to be exact, our village. Since I was home alone, I played with my DSLR and had so much fun editing my pictures. So, the results are below:

Edited. :3

Fake smiles helped me a lot. 

I am who I am, you can't change the way I am. 

Small eyes, wide forehead. Yeap. That's me.

Smile. :)

Waiting Outside The Line. #1

Waiting Outside The Line. #2

There you have it. a compilation of my pictures. Perhaps after this, I'll try to indulge my self into photography because it's kind of awesome. Plus, it's the widest and biggest trend in the whole world. Who wouldn't want to do it right? Unless you don't own any DSLR or Camera. But, it's okay, maybe you should indulge into something different. Anyway, if you have any comments towards my pictures above, you can comment it in the comment form. :) 

Happy Holidays. XOXO

syafiQ.

Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1

Childhood is the kingdom where nobody died. - Isabella Swan

As you can see from the picture inserted, I officially watched Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1 on the first day of screening. This movie has been the most anticipated movie for this year next to Harry Potter Part 2. It has always been my dream of watching a movie on the first day of screening and thankfully, I did it.

Bought the tickets for 1:10pm show but waited for almost 25 minutes just because of a 'problemo' in the hall. Everyone couldn't seem to wait to enter the hall as it is like I said one of the most anticipated movie of the year. While waiting in the queue, we talked about our exam results. I was a little bit confident that I'll excel but at the same time, I don't think that I can. I told my friend to ask about my pointer and to my amazement, my guess was correct! I managed to excel in the final exam. Alhamdulillah. I was very excited and hyped as soon as I knew about my pointer. The door to Hall 6 has finally opened and people were rushing to get into it. I almost touched someone's butt in the mad crowd. *disgusting much.

The movie started in a blink of an eye. Jacob ran away immediately when he received the wedding invitation from Bella while Bella's mother and step father were so happy about it and not to be forgotten, Bella's lovely father smiled when he stared at the invitation. I guess some people can't seem to accept the fact that somebody's going to get married. Huh.

I didn't sleep through the movie because it was too damn freaking awesome. However, we were the only loud group in the hall. It was as if we own the hall and the cinema. Thankfully, the others didn't feel annoyed and the just let us be.

Movie Review:
   Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1 was very amazing. You know, it's like you can feel what the actors and actresses are feeling. Their choice of wardrobe is fine. The movie really captured my attention from the beginning. And the way the end the story is beyond imagination because it really makes you want more for the Part 2. All in all, this is a very magnificent movie. You should NOT watch this with your family because there are some scenes which will bring you towards total awkwardness if you watch with your family. Perhaps you can bring your friend watch this movie. Just like what I did.

Rating :
***** 5/5


XOXO. Happy Holidays!

Relationships.

"Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is important." - Carl Reiner. 

Howdy bloggers how're ya'll doing? As usual, I am fine and I am ready to blog. 

To be frank, I've always wanted to share about this thing since the dawn of time but because of exams and procrastination, I end up keeping it to myself for a very long time. But, Alhamdulillah, my fingers are very light and energetic.

  

straight.

gay.

lesbian.

In the whole wide world, there are only 1 relationship that is considered as normal which is a guy to woman relationships. However, there are 2 relationships that is not accepted by many which is the guy to guy relationships and woman to woman relationships. Many had debated and tried to make these 2 additional types of relationships vanish forever. Unfortunately, they failed to do so and now, as the world is modernizing, these relationships began to grow at a fast rate. 

I once wondered how would it feels like dating a guy? Since I knew how did it feels like dating a girl. I know this sounds weird but my curiosity grew higher day by day and I did a research about gay relationships. To my amazement, all that I could see in the Google page was videos of gays making inappropriate actions on set. After a few seconds of staring through all the results, I came to a conclusion that gay relationships are more to sex pleasure rather than a long lasting relationship. So, I closed the tab and went blank for a few days. I was quite shocked about it. 

One day at school, a male friend of mine suddenly sit in front of me and looked straight into my hazel eyes.  The class was empty so does the corridor. It was just me and him. At first, I didn't feel anything suspicious or weird because he's my friend and I've known him for a very long time indeed. He's quite a good looking guy I must say, and I can tell that he's sort of muscular. In all of a sudden, he held my hands and pulled his face gently towards mine and he said the magic word. I Love You. I thought that it was a joke, and I replied it as if I really meant it. He smiled at me and literally kissed my hands. I was totally shocked at that moment because I never thought that he would have the courage to do something like that. Ever. He took my pencil and kept it inside of his pocket and went away. I was left mystified.

At the end of the day, I saw him near the main entrance and he smiled at me reluctantly as if he's afraid that I'll tell everybody about what happened during recess. Luckily, my dad came early and I got into the car without looking at the guy at all. 

In my room, I kept on thinking about the 'tragedy' and I suddenly felt something that I call likeness. I snapped out of the feeling cause there's no way in hell that I'm ever going to fall in love with a guy. Even if there's only 1 girl left in the world, I'd still try to get the girl. 

When the sun fell down, it was time for the moon to provide light source to humans. The sudden likeness was still inside of me and I can't seem to understand what is this feeling actually means. I was very worried  if I'm turning into a gay who date with guys. I slept early and forget about everything about it on the next morning. Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah the feeling went away easily. 

From that incident, I finally knew how would it feels like, dating a guy. Even if it was just a short period of time. 

So, what I'm trying to say here is that :

- never ever care what would people say about your sexuality. it's your life you're living, not theirs. 

- choose your sexuality wisely to avoid from regretting them. 

- be with who you want to be with through the rest of your life. if it's a guy, then be with it. and if it's a girl, make it happen. 

I think that's all for now, thank you for reading, have a nice day. :) 

Assalamualaikum. 

xoxo.

Walk Away.

"When life gives you lemon, make lemonades."

I've been trying to get a grip on reality since the first time we met each other. I was in the realm of wonderland for quite a very long time indeed. Everyday, my life is being haunted by a 'dream' which I believe that it will never turn into reality. You are something desirable to me and I can't let you go just like that. But faith was not by my side, and I think it's time to let you go and get a grip on reality.

I wish I had never met you on the first place. Without knowing that you are something impossible to me, I tried to be with you all the time hoping that luck will light up the way. As time goes by, you were on my mind all the time until I reach that one point where I'd easily get jealous whenever you are with other guys. Sometimes, the thought of you made me stay awake until 3 AM in the morning. Your laughter and your loud voice all lingering in my head.

Every time I tried to walk away, I can't seem to make it happen. I tried and tried real hard but all I get was nothing. But on that very day, God has given me the opportunity to walk away from you and I did. You were with someone else and it broke my heart into tiny little pieces. Miraculously, I find it really helpful and I was really happy with it. Thank God.

Since that day, I started to care less about you. I avoided you and I stopped talking to you. You may not understand why I'm doing this, but you got to at least try to understand. From that day, I told myself to learn to walk away and face reality. Even if reality hurts a lot, stay in there because there's nothing more hurtful than heartbreaks and grief. Reality teaches you how to be a stronger and wiser man.

 -The End-

Najwa Latiff .

Najwa Latiff is one of the Young Talents Of Malaysia. Her talent in music has brought her to a higher level in the industry. At first, she was a normal teenager who posts video into YouTube with hopes that she'll be famous like Yuna or Justin Bieber or Ana Raffali. Finally, after months of attempts, she has now emerged as an awesome singer with such big talent. Her popularity is getting higher day by day. 

Recently, I've been exposed to the songs that she sang on YouTube. Of all the songs that I heard, Cinta Muka Buku stroked my soul and triggered something inside of me which I call likeness. I keep on repeating the song and miraculously, I enjoyed it. In fact, the more I play the song, the more enjoyment I get. It's my ear-candy.

From this article, all I'm trying to say is that, reach for your dreams and make it happen. No matter how hard it takes, just go for it and you'll never regret the outcomes. Fulfill your destiny like she did. :) 

Her smile is so beautiful and wonderful.
Her voice is a miracle.
16 is just so possible.
Nothing is impossible.

♥Najwa Latif♥